It was a day without CSC Day peeps.

I should be enjoying my nice break from all the hard work for the past few weeks. But I was on the verge of crying instead.

I know I was moody for some reasons recently. But I didn't really show out my feelings to everyone who was around me. In fact, I was smiling to whoever I saw. I guess I'm not a person who will show my feeling on my face that easily unless it is really serious.

I have been trying to hide my emotions from the CSC Day peeps almost everyday. I am really unhappy recently. But they are not the reason for my unhappiness, so I do not want to affect them just because I'm moody. They are the ones who take my thoughts away, not thinking about anything else, but stuff on CSC Day. I feel happy around them, because I tend to forget about unhappy things. It can be very tiring at the end of the day, but I really enjoy their company.

As I try very hard not to express my true feelings, I hate it when people take it out on me just because they're unhappy themselves. I don't understand why so many people like to take it out on me these few days. Is it because I seem to be happy-go-lucky all the time to you? When I'm happy, you would want to dampen my mood? So sad to say, I'm not as happy as you may think as well. I just feel so wronged that these people are treating me like that without considering about how I truly feel. All they care is about themselves.

It was a day without CSC Day peeps indeed. Without them to be there to cheer me up with all sorts of nonsense we have everyday we meet.