I wake up so reluctantly at 8.30am today.. so tired lor... muz meet 4 mob project in sch... den bought i-wkly on e way... Project Superstar issue! haha... of coz flip 2 junyang 1st lor.. hmm... junyang's stil so... junyang lor. haha... dunno how 2 say. anw, e mag write silver from ngee ann lor! when did tt happen?! haiyo...

end up I reach dover quite early lor. den saw a ger lying on e floor. at 1st I tot she sleep down dere 4 fun. coz everyone din go help her juz look nia. end up is she realli fainted la.. so e mrt staff rush out 2 look at her. shocked daoz... den 1 of them go bring stretcher & den bring her inside. she veri weak lehz.. cannot get up herself. when ambulance come den bring her out.

anw, dunno if mrt staff r trained 4 1st aid not. coz dey like dunno wad happen 2 e ger lehz.. hmm... mayb if dey nv learn, SMRT shld send them go learn some basics. coz if realli come 2 emergency, it would help lor. can suggest feedback hor. haha.. mayb chee kai can go teach them la.. haha...

yah, tok 2 sito last nite, den realize she in sp aso! biz sch somemore, she say c me b4, but I blur one aso nv c her de.. anw, she tot me alot of things lor, den I blur blur de aso. wa... die le die le.. study biz IT stil so blur one lor.. anw, she sent me e video of "wan quan yu le". look so "gun du"la.. nth to say...

Stardom Story

today I supposed 2 meet khay, jiaqun & suet 4 IDEA project at tampines mrt. den when I crossing e road tt time amanda msg-ed me lor. she said I appeared on "Wan Quan Yu Le" today.. I was like... HUH?! was I looking sianz or wad? she said I happen 2 b looking at e cam so no expression lor.. coz I was realli quite sianz during e zpop concert 4 some singers mah.. haha.. not bad sia.. taiwan variety show lehz..

anw, if u flipped today's New Paper, u can c amanda & her 3 other friends looking so sianz in e 1st row(zhang hui mei tt pg). I was e ger juz covered by e big big a-mei pic. haha... lucky cover liao, coz I aso look sian t time. den e ger in pink(but look red in newspaper) say she got no face 2 c other ppl le. haha...

yah, den of coz we got do project la, we decided who do wad all tt den realize finish veri fast lor. lucky we ask eileen dun come, coz she beri tired from band camp den let her rest at home lor. eileen muz rest well hor! =D den we go surf e "scary" webbie chee kai gave khay & jiaqun. actu most not scary one. but got 1 hor, we look so long nth happen. but hor, like onli me tink e red eyes moving! dun dare stare at it somemore lor. later tonite get nightmare how...

P.S. dun like my story ending? nvm.. mayb there will b a sequel.. Leaving our footsteps behind... b kept in suspense. =P

bugis trip

yep, went 2 bugis wif ee leng y'day afternoon. she got taekondo testing in e morning wor.. anw, e JJ she drew veri cute lehz.. haha.. thanks 4 those who helped me celebrate my b'day earlier(DBIT 21) or rmb my b'day in any way. I realli appreciate u all. thanks alot!

both of us so sian we go walk walk ard bugis lor. den I thirsty go buy drink from 1 of those food fest stalls I tink. dey cheat money one, when I finish e drink, ee leng tell me 2 look at my cup. wa! e ice is almost 2 e top le. and it costs me $2 lehz.. shld have bought from mac instead..

we walk ard looking 4 earrings but dun ve we like 1. den we saw alot of cute cute things but veri exp. so looking ard, den know wad 2 buy 4 leng when her b'day come le. haha... I bought Jinsha's album(china version) aso lor. inside got "bei feng chui guo de xia tian" mv aso! haha... nono, tt's not e purpose of buying e album k.. hehe.. it's coz I tink she veri sweet & pretty, both person & singing.

yah, den her loong said he tink he saw me at e mrt station. haha.. I tink I too busy discussing wif leng where 2 go next so nv c him la. sorry hor.. hehe...

zpop to e last bit!

hehe... I slept over at amanda's hse last nite & juz reach home only.. actu I'm stil veri sleepy, my eyes wan to close wan 2 close liao. but later stil muz meet ee leng at bugis.. zpop concert was FUN! though it's veri tiring(coz need 2 stand 6h+) but I've enjoyed myself..

I met amanda at tampines mrt at 7+, den go suntec meet her friend. we were quite early la, den we slept awhile in e holding area until 11+. amanda & I nearly lost our way when we went Carrefour 2 buy food. haha... den we wait til 3+, I tink den dey let us into e real venue. meanwhile, another 2 of amanda's friends aso come liao. dey all support 183 club except me, so dey got boards aso. 1 of amanda's friends veri pro de! know which singer got private session all tt, den ask me wan go JJ's one nt, but I dun wan la, later I miss zpop no gd mah..

when we were led into e venue, it's wow lehz.. so nice.. but e bad ting is, e $30 area is at e side, onli can view big screen while e $20 area is juz behind $60 area.. anw, we were in e 1st row lor, so close up! haha.. e security guard asked if anyone bring camera den everyone shook their head. but once inside, there's lots of cameras, excluding e medias... haha..

anw, e event starts on time, wif e project superstars pulling votes & singing e "Mice Love Rice". I saw junyang of coz! haha... he's much better looking than on tv, always got tt blur but cute face. derrick is cuter on tv though.

to make tis entry not too long, I shall try 2 cut tings short. most of e singers look better in person, & a few of them came down 2 shake hands wif e audience. but when JJ came out, it's so obvious tt cheers 4 him r so loud! he's 1 of e highlights of e whole show. I was so excited too! coz e grand piano on e stage was mainly 4 him 2 perform & I was standing rite in front of it! Best view of e piano & JJ of coz! hehe... den he perfrom beat box techniques thru his mouth too. wa... he's so talented lehz... of coz he came down shook hands aso la.. tt's e part I anticipated most! anw, it wasn't any hand shaking, ppl juz rushed front 2 GRAB his hands! wa... den I could feel e barrier shaking 4 e 1st time in e show. of coz, he did sing e duet wif his shimei, Jinsha. so sweet! den I got take pics of JJ holding her hands aso(amanda's cam). haha...

yah, a-mei was e one who brought e show 2 its peak! she's veri talented, but I tink it's ok coz I dun realli support her la.. den there's tis media guy, veri young 1, ran up e stage to present flowers 2 her, & hug her too. e whole part of a-mei he was totally havoc liao! but on e side he was a nice guy la. coz tink some ppl requested him 2 help them take photos & he did lor. oh ya, btw, dere's tis uncle photographer aso veri enthu one, everytime got fast songs he'll start shaking his body 2 e music den take photos. so cute! haha...

so e show ended later than expected time, ard 11.20pm. me & amanda veri lucky can catch e last train, coz onli e train 2 pasir ris is available when we reach city hall. so tired lehz... but enjoyable la.. =D

I'm realli sorry 2 those who r concerned abt me. I juz cant bring myself 2 smile. afterall, so many things happen already & I cant bring myself 2 forget abt all those unhappy moments.. I dun tink I can take it anymore, I feel so not myself nowadays.. wadeva e path tt's rite in front of me, I guess I wun b e same me again.

nobody truly understand how I feel. perhaps its bcoz I dun wan them 2 know. I can only convey my t0tz 2 my closest friends. I'm very lucky 2 have them appearing in my life, dey'll b there whenever I need them. dey know when I need 2 b alone, when I'm rdy 2 tok. I'm veri thankful 4 all tt.

once again, thanks 4 all ur concern. if I tell u I'm ok, I'll lying. I dun wan ppl 2 worry, tt's all. I guess I'll recover when e time is rite. pls do not worry.

JJ rawks!

I juz come home from NP, watching JJ's " Yin Yue Chuang Zuo Fen Xiang Hui"! haha... me & eileen left SP at 4pm & reach NP at ard 4.30pm.. we're quite early lor, coz we're queueing in e 4th row. u shld c e queue behind us. WOW! e ting supposed 2 start at 6.30 & e tix noted tt we shld b seated by 6pm. but we wait til 6.45pm den dey let us into e convention centre lor.. sianz 1/2 ritez... during e long waiting time, me & eileen tok lor. den I ask her 2 listen 2 e 2 lines in my msn nick. she aso agree e song make ppl feel like crying lor. haha... oops! it's *sobz*

anw, there's tis ger in queue behind us. she's friendly lor, but TOO friendly le.. keep smiling at us.. den I wan 2 avoid looking at her, so scary! 1st wan look at my hp(coz of e JJ pics I pasted), den ask me send her pic after tt, den exchange hp no., den ask me wad tix price I bought 4 zpop... i dun realli rmb le, but me & eileen tink she veri lame trying 2 make jokes wif us. den I was like " haha. haha.", dunno wad 2 say.. I was telling eileen better dun sit near her or I'll faint.

when we finally got in, we seated quite in front, e ger & 1 of her friend realli sat in front of us. so me & eileen try not 2 look in her direction. den dey play NP's video trying 2 promote NP. I nearly wanted 2 shout "SP den ROCKS LOR!" but nv la, I stil wan 2 go out alive... LoL... blah blah blah...

den JJ finally appear! wah.. he wear e same jacket as e 22 guy wif e word "Italia" or sth like tt lor. haha... I tot it's onli some singing & autograph. but it appear 2 b him discussing abt his latest album concept & ideas, including most of e songs inside.. den e MC, yang jun wei, keep entertaining us by teasing him wif JJ's shimei, JinSha.. he veri bad lor, dun give JJ a chance 2 explain.. but veri funny lor.. den he play games wif audience mah, got 1 ger took e chance 2 touch JJ, hug him so many times.. make me so jealous.. den everyone was like "ooh...ahh..." haha... we saw a few MVs & look at e lyrics of some songs as we listen to them while JJ & his shifu, Xu Huan Liang, tok abt his album & e songs.. wad I like most is e " jian jian dan dan" & "yi qian nian yi hou" MV. he's so cute when he ate e bread in "jian jian dan dan"! AHH... "yi qian nian yi hou" e MV is as touching as e song.. e last part is JJ singing wif JinSha.. JinSha veri pretty & sweet lor.. den JJ of coz abit embarrassed coz Jun Wei teased him again.

after all tt, we queue up 4 autograph session. I shook hands wif JJ again! tis time wif left hand coz he's too busy signing wif his right hand. eileen aso got shake, den say dun wash our hands today.. haha... finally got my autograph aso of coz... my last autograph was abit screwed up.. but tis time de is stil ok.. hehe... too bad we cant take photo coz veri dark den khay's cam dark mode no anti-shake so come out veri blur. but got take a few short video from e big screen la. haha...

better end here le.. very tired muz go sleep. hehe.. =D

today nth much la.. onli JJ makes me cry la... actually is, I was playing "yi qian nian yi hou", "jian jian dan dan" & "wu jing de si nian" repeatedly on media player. den play dunno 2x or 3x halfway thru "wu jing de si nian" like suddenly so touching den cry liao.. who ask JJ sing til got feel lor.. so I decided 2 add "dao" inside e playlist. haha...

juz nw my mum broke e perfume bottle & my nose suffer.. coz my nose sensitive sia.. dunno sneeze how many times liao.. haben stop lehz.. *sobz*

I'm supposed 2 write another meaningful entry, but he come & tok to me. so I decide to change my topic.

after almost a mth's time, we finally get a chance 2 sit down & tok again, as friends. he's still alone of coz.. while I am trying, fer those who know. he knew it too, I told him, I've 2 b frank. I tink I'm being such a lousy person here. I tot he'll b saddened.. mayb he is, I dunno.. but he ask me 2 go 4 it, go & find where my heart truly belongs.

"Find ur happiness. Find back wad u've lost. Replace wad's missing from ur heart. Follow where ur heart goes. Most importantly, dun hold urself back b'coz of me. Learn 2 let go, I'm not there fer u nw, but I'll always give u support whenever u need it. SmiLe AlwayZ"

yeah, smile alwayzZ. I'll promise to do tt. suddenly, I've so mixed feelings.. I've love him so much once, but nw as I say, wad's gone will nv come back. he understands.. we both accept e fact. although we wun b together, but we hold precious memories of tears & joy. Friends we always will b. he's definitely much more sensible than me. I wish e best fer him. pls go fer him gals! he may not b e best, but he mayb wad u wan. =)

SmiLeZ =P

I dun understand y so many ppl r so unsatisfied wif wad dey have rite nw.. dey wanna achieve e best, even though dey know dey can't do it.. so y give urself so high an expectation tt u can nv achieve? I tink we shld juz do our part, even if it's nt e best, at least we know we've done our best. Not letting ur wings soar thru e sky w/o u .. Be Yourself. Nobody's Perfect.. Juz like wad a person said 2 me today, it has nv been possible 4 anyone 2 achieve a particular perfect score so far in his life. even though a guy almost did tt.. yes, dere's where I wan 2 bring my pt abt.. Hope ppl who read tis will understand & not give urself too much stress abt achieving. juz do ur best & nobody'll blame u. SmiLeZ =P

bOriNg....

so sianz... now inside com lab having ITOS.. not BORING at all la... looks like not many ppl r paying attention aso lor... den teacher so lame today... aiyoZz... dunno wad to say lor =.="'

bLoG aGaiN aFTeR sOo LoNg- - - -

wa... I so long nv post le... coz tis few wks quite bz mah... no time to blog... alot of things happen in such a short time lehz... so fast already wk 6 le, when I seem to feel tt I've only been fer orientation y'day... ppl say time flies... I agree, time flies in a rocket lor...

anw, maths quiz & MOB test all gao tim liao.. got back IDEA CA1 result too.. so far all tis went pretty well, no doubt, since maths was screwed up on e gd side fer me.. hehe... actually, I'll expect my MOB test to b gd too.. hmm... hope so ba... hehe...

lastly, I muz say, I own e phrase OMG in DBIT 21 ok.. due to some particular reason onli known to my clique.. haha... e one in my eyes... DaShZz- - - - - =P