I AM SERIOUSLY DEPRIVED OF SLEEP!
I was rushing my ET1000 Essay 2 that was due on the day itself until 3am plus last night. As usual, I woke up at 7.30am to get ready for school. Amazingly, I had a seat on the train even though I boarded it from Tampines, but I couldn't fall asleep even though I was sleepy. Basically, I was totally awake on my whole journey to school. Zz..
I had a long chat on msn with Carol in school. At least I did feel slightly better after talking to her. I guess everyone has different points of view, we see the same thing from different angles. She can't solve my problem. Afterall, I'm the one who choose not to say out everything. I seriously don't want see terrible things to happen just if I've chosen to protect myself instead. Well... Since I choose this route myself, I just have to really learn how to cope with it.
Oh! my mind was blank most of the time man! I really need my sleep! Sending message to the wrong person was bad enough. I did something even dumber. I had dinner at a coffeeshop with Carol after my school/her work near Carol's place. I actually left my laptop behind when we left! I'm really crazy man! I only realized it when I was already on the bus. Thanks goodness I took 291 which routes around that area before returning to the bus interchange. So I alighted and ran back to the coffeeshop to find it. Thank goodness the coffeeshop worker kept it for me! I even made Carol run a distance because I called her to tell her my stupidity.
It shows how I was so much deprived of sleep! I've never lost my handphone before, unless I left it at home. The laptop weighs so much heavier than the handphone, yet I can miss its presence! The laptop is important to me! Just in the previous post I mentioned I had to be responsible for so many people, and this thing has to happen! I've already set everything properly on my laptop for the live webcast on Sunday!
It's okay! Go ahead and laugh, because I'm becoming sillier and sillier.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
JJ Post-Concert Party Live Webcast
What: JJ Post-Concert Party Live Webcast
When: 29/03/09 @ 13:45
Where: http://blog.omy.sg/jun-jie
"The highly anticipated JJ Post-Concert Success Party will be here soon! On 29 March, there will be a live webcast made available to everyone, including JMs from overseas on http://blog.omy.sg/jun-jie. The live webcast will be telecasted through the website at 1.45pm on that day. JMs who are unable to physically join us for the event can view it over the internet. However, for those viewing it over the internet, please expect a short delay time between the live program and this video. If the video does not play, do try refreshing the page.
Enjoy!(: And pass this news by blogging about it or through any other means. A lot of planning has been put into this and we sincerely hope that everyone will enjoy it!"
Okay! This is official! We're doing this live telecast for real!
Well... Maybe we should thank Yongsheng for making this possible indirectly. =D Even though he's in China now, his JJFC spirit is always with us! =D He wants to watch the party badly, and yet he attend the upcoming event. In the process, we have a lot of crazy ideas of how he could be "here" with us even though he can't be physically present. I've never thought that this is going to be possible at all.
Everything is ready. Well.. Almost I guess.. I'm still having that jittery feeling though. I guess it's because our responsibility is the unknown number of JMs who will be anticipating to watch the live webcast! Well.. At least I'm throwing half of it at Ivalyn! hahaha... We can do it man! =D
Thanks to those who trust us and thus making it possible.
Thanks to Celeste & Ivalyn for letting me know I'm not alone.
=D
When: 29/03/09 @ 13:45
Where: http://blog.omy.sg/jun-jie
"The highly anticipated JJ Post-Concert Success Party will be here soon! On 29 March, there will be a live webcast made available to everyone, including JMs from overseas on http://blog.omy.sg/jun-jie. The live webcast will be telecasted through the website at 1.45pm on that day. JMs who are unable to physically join us for the event can view it over the internet. However, for those viewing it over the internet, please expect a short delay time between the live program and this video. If the video does not play, do try refreshing the page.
Enjoy!(: And pass this news by blogging about it or through any other means. A lot of planning has been put into this and we sincerely hope that everyone will enjoy it!"
Okay! This is official! We're doing this live telecast for real!
Well... Maybe we should thank Yongsheng for making this possible indirectly. =D Even though he's in China now, his JJFC spirit is always with us! =D He wants to watch the party badly, and yet he attend the upcoming event. In the process, we have a lot of crazy ideas of how he could be "here" with us even though he can't be physically present. I've never thought that this is going to be possible at all.
Everything is ready. Well.. Almost I guess.. I'm still having that jittery feeling though. I guess it's because our responsibility is the unknown number of JMs who will be anticipating to watch the live webcast! Well.. At least I'm throwing half of it at Ivalyn! hahaha... We can do it man! =D
Thanks to those who trust us and thus making it possible.
Thanks to Celeste & Ivalyn for letting me know I'm not alone.
=D
Friday, March 20, 2009
JJ's concert is next Saturday!
JJ's concert is next Saturday!
Okay, I have been kind of lazy + busy to update my blog since the last time. Really really not that long ago la..
Smudge official launch was last Fri! JJ's concept is really cool! I love the shop, though it was super crowded the other day & I was super tired too. Anyway, I did buy a SMUDGE shirt in the end! The same design and colour as Ivalyn and Wynne! =D
How funny it was to think back now, when JJ came down to take a group photo with them. Yes, I mean them, not us. The funny thing was with the few of us sitting across the road. I told you we were super tired. It's like the first time man! When everyone rushed to gather around JJ to take photos, the few of us just remained at where we were, sitting on/standing near the stairs across the road. Our reply when others asked if we wanted to join in was, "It's ok, just go ahead." And we just continued sitting down there for the longest time, watching them take photos. I'm sure I got that queer feeling of like watching a show, when JJ was actually real standing across the road taking photos with the rest. How could I resist getting close to JJ right? Well.. I just didn't feel like moving my butt and join in at that point of time. Don't ask me why. Don't worry, I still love JJ as much =D
Talking about Ivalyn, I totally feel proud of the both of us! wahaha... Our testing phase went well, with tons of stupid things done by me as well. Well.. Stupid things are unavoidable when it comes to me! haha.. At least, things progressed well and quicker than we expected. =D However, though everything went smoothly as it is, I still have that jittery feeling. I just hope everything is going to go on well as we expected with no hiccups. I have confidence in our partnership, it's just that I pray no unexpected situation crops up last minute! We already came up with all kinds of possible situations, we hope we didn't miss anything out! We'll be holding responsible to I-don't-how-many-people man! haha...
Overall, I think I work well with Ivalyn. I think she's like me totally! It's what I called retribution. It's just how I "bully" Carol, and Ivalyn is doing the same to me! haha... That's why, Carol loves me so much, and I love Ivalyn even more! haha...
I think I'm going to get so busy next week! I've placed so much responsibility on myself, including the trust of others in me. I can't say I'm the best person to perform those tasks, but I'll definitely do them well. I feel so involved in JJFC! =D
Oh! Anyway, it's how amazing some people think I'm ok with them already when obviously I'm not. Please. I'm just doing my job, what I did was part of my duty, and I have to be fair. It's not as if I really want to, or feels like it.
Okay, I have been kind of lazy + busy to update my blog since the last time. Really really not that long ago la..
Smudge official launch was last Fri! JJ's concept is really cool! I love the shop, though it was super crowded the other day & I was super tired too. Anyway, I did buy a SMUDGE shirt in the end! The same design and colour as Ivalyn and Wynne! =D
How funny it was to think back now, when JJ came down to take a group photo with them. Yes, I mean them, not us. The funny thing was with the few of us sitting across the road. I told you we were super tired. It's like the first time man! When everyone rushed to gather around JJ to take photos, the few of us just remained at where we were, sitting on/standing near the stairs across the road. Our reply when others asked if we wanted to join in was, "It's ok, just go ahead." And we just continued sitting down there for the longest time, watching them take photos. I'm sure I got that queer feeling of like watching a show, when JJ was actually real standing across the road taking photos with the rest. How could I resist getting close to JJ right? Well.. I just didn't feel like moving my butt and join in at that point of time. Don't ask me why. Don't worry, I still love JJ as much =D
Talking about Ivalyn, I totally feel proud of the both of us! wahaha... Our testing phase went well, with tons of stupid things done by me as well. Well.. Stupid things are unavoidable when it comes to me! haha.. At least, things progressed well and quicker than we expected. =D However, though everything went smoothly as it is, I still have that jittery feeling. I just hope everything is going to go on well as we expected with no hiccups. I have confidence in our partnership, it's just that I pray no unexpected situation crops up last minute! We already came up with all kinds of possible situations, we hope we didn't miss anything out! We'll be holding responsible to I-don't-how-many-people man! haha...
Overall, I think I work well with Ivalyn. I think she's like me totally! It's what I called retribution. It's just how I "bully" Carol, and Ivalyn is doing the same to me! haha... That's why, Carol loves me so much, and I love Ivalyn even more! haha...
I think I'm going to get so busy next week! I've placed so much responsibility on myself, including the trust of others in me. I can't say I'm the best person to perform those tasks, but I'll definitely do them well. I feel so involved in JJFC! =D
Oh! Anyway, it's how amazing some people think I'm ok with them already when obviously I'm not. Please. I'm just doing my job, what I did was part of my duty, and I have to be fair. It's not as if I really want to, or feels like it.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Just what is happening to me? Where's the fighting spirit I used to have? Where has all my motivation gone to? The me that I know now is someone who might just break down anytime. Someone who get so emotional out of the blue. I don't recognize myself anymore.
I used to love going to school so much. I used to enjoy the learning process in lectures, except tests and exams. Now, I totally dread going to school. Going for lectures is no longer something that I look forward to anymore. Stress and peer pressure surround me all the time. I ask myself, haven't I work hard enough? Haven't I try my best? I study much harder than I used to in SP, but my grades are totally depressing instead. Where's the motivation to study at all? And I get frustrated easily when I can't solve my assignments. I know there's a lot of people helping me out there. That's when I get more stressful. It seems to come to them so easily, yet I spend so much time trying to solve the problems, even with the help from others. I know I should just do my best and not compete with others. However, I can't help it when the school has to rank & grade us according to the bell curve. It just makes me feel that, no matter how well I did, if more people do better than me, I will still be averaged out or getting a lower grade than I deserve. I feel even worse when most people does so much better than me and all I did was really borderline pass.
That's also the reason I hate people telling me to work hard. Although I've never shown it, but I really hate it. I understand that these people are concerned and meant well. It's just like I'm working hard, but it's just that my results don't show it. I just hate it when people tell me, "You can do it!" Whenever I hear this, all I can think of is, "I wish I could." It's very depressing to hear something so motivating, yet I can't live up to expectation. I know I should aim to get at least a Third Lower Honours. How I wish people should stop mentioning it to me! It's like I know it's one thing that I should aim for, but whether if I can achieve it is still a doubt. Repeated mentions about it just make me feel irritated because it's still my soft spot that I have higher chance not achieving it at all. If I can do it, of course I will. Who doesn't want to achieve better grades?
Maybe, that is also why I tend to show my emotions more frequently nowadays. One moment, I can be happily talking to you. The next moment, I might just ignore you. I don't know what is happening to me, but I just can't help to let my emotions flow. I don't like it myself either. But I just need to let out my feelings somehow.
I wish I can be as happy as I used to be. But I know I can't.
I used to love going to school so much. I used to enjoy the learning process in lectures, except tests and exams. Now, I totally dread going to school. Going for lectures is no longer something that I look forward to anymore. Stress and peer pressure surround me all the time. I ask myself, haven't I work hard enough? Haven't I try my best? I study much harder than I used to in SP, but my grades are totally depressing instead. Where's the motivation to study at all? And I get frustrated easily when I can't solve my assignments. I know there's a lot of people helping me out there. That's when I get more stressful. It seems to come to them so easily, yet I spend so much time trying to solve the problems, even with the help from others. I know I should just do my best and not compete with others. However, I can't help it when the school has to rank & grade us according to the bell curve. It just makes me feel that, no matter how well I did, if more people do better than me, I will still be averaged out or getting a lower grade than I deserve. I feel even worse when most people does so much better than me and all I did was really borderline pass.
That's also the reason I hate people telling me to work hard. Although I've never shown it, but I really hate it. I understand that these people are concerned and meant well. It's just like I'm working hard, but it's just that my results don't show it. I just hate it when people tell me, "You can do it!" Whenever I hear this, all I can think of is, "I wish I could." It's very depressing to hear something so motivating, yet I can't live up to expectation. I know I should aim to get at least a Third Lower Honours. How I wish people should stop mentioning it to me! It's like I know it's one thing that I should aim for, but whether if I can achieve it is still a doubt. Repeated mentions about it just make me feel irritated because it's still my soft spot that I have higher chance not achieving it at all. If I can do it, of course I will. Who doesn't want to achieve better grades?
Maybe, that is also why I tend to show my emotions more frequently nowadays. One moment, I can be happily talking to you. The next moment, I might just ignore you. I don't know what is happening to me, but I just can't help to let my emotions flow. I don't like it myself either. But I just need to let out my feelings somehow.
I wish I can be as happy as I used to be. But I know I can't.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Mid-term week is finally over! However, that doesn't mean I've any spare time to relax! In fact, I'm suddenly entrusted with different kinds of responsibilities. So much things to do, yet so little time! I do not really mind, but I hope I can perform my tasks well.
I'm supposed to call the girls in my group for e6 today. I shall do it later. What I didn't know is, I'm have to be involved in NUS Openhouse this weekend too. And then, there's CS1102 labbing to kill me off tonight too. Argh..
I guess I really give up already. I don't want to fight for what is right anymore. I'm really tired. I'm just totally disappointed. Isn't what happened almost the same as what I was going through all this while? If that feeling is stronger than how I've been feeling, why am I not understood the same way? And if one could not even sense what has happened over the phone the other day, there's only so much I can say.
I'm supposed to call the girls in my group for e6 today. I shall do it later. What I didn't know is, I'm have to be involved in NUS Openhouse this weekend too. And then, there's CS1102 labbing to kill me off tonight too. Argh..
I guess I really give up already. I don't want to fight for what is right anymore. I'm really tired. I'm just totally disappointed. Isn't what happened almost the same as what I was going through all this while? If that feeling is stronger than how I've been feeling, why am I not understood the same way? And if one could not even sense what has happened over the phone the other day, there's only so much I can say.
Friday, March 06, 2009
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
为什么最近身边的人，个个都不开心、忧郁寡欢的？我不喜欢这种感觉。。 我能帮他们的，也只有那么多。。 我在他们面前都尽量扮演那个开心果的角色，逗逗大家笑一笑。至少让他们知道，还有一个朋友陪在他们的身边。。
我不喜欢把心情全挂在脸上。。 所以很少人会看得出来我到底开不开心。。就没有那个必要。。 就算再失望，我能做的也只有那一点。。 就算再不满意，有些事情还是要去完成。。 也许我可以轻易地就放弃了，可是我却不能这样就放下了。。 因为大家对我的期许，我就根本离不开，不能让大家失望。。
A lot of people keep telling me a similar thing recently. "As long as I have nothing to hide." Yups.. Thanks a lot for you people for trusting me in so many different things.
我不喜欢把心情全挂在脸上。。 所以很少人会看得出来我到底开不开心。。就没有那个必要。。 就算再失望，我能做的也只有那一点。。 就算再不满意，有些事情还是要去完成。。 也许我可以轻易地就放弃了，可是我却不能这样就放下了。。 因为大家对我的期许，我就根本离不开，不能让大家失望。。
A lot of people keep telling me a similar thing recently. "As long as I have nothing to hide." Yups.. Thanks a lot for you people for trusting me in so many different things.
Monday, March 02, 2009
And my mid-term break ends just like that!
As if there was a break for me!
I've been going to school for 3 days in the week,
when my normal school week is a 4-day week.
It's gonna be a busy week ahead!
1 sit-in lab, 1 quiz, and 3 mid-term tests.
I hope I'll coping just fine!
AAHH!
I'm still thinking whether to go for this saturday's event or not! It'll be quite rushed for me as I have 2 tests on that day and the last one ends in the early afternoon. Haiz...
As if there was a break for me!
I've been going to school for 3 days in the week,
when my normal school week is a 4-day week.
It's gonna be a busy week ahead!
1 sit-in lab, 1 quiz, and 3 mid-term tests.
I hope I'll coping just fine!
AAHH!
I'm still thinking whether to go for this saturday's event or not! It'll be quite rushed for me as I have 2 tests on that day and the last one ends in the early afternoon. Haiz...
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