Kind? Or Not?

too kind.. I realize I'm being too kind.. I'm not self-praising seriously. coz being kind hasn't done any gd to me at all.. I dun mind being kind to anyone. I dun mind not hearing tt thank you after helping someone. but I mind when ppl take my kindness for granted. I'm not a slave. my kindness has started to turn deaf, it's as if it's not a kindness anymore. it's a command. ppl begin to take advantage of my kindness, misuse it, unappreciative of my kindness, gaining back from it sometimes become some hurtful comments.. it's as if it's my responsibility to help them in e 1st place, and I deserve to b scolded or insulted when I did it wrong or rejected them. pls dun regard my kindness as li2 suo3 dang1 ran2. sometimes I wish I can b more selfish. juz doing my own part of job & not b bothered abt others.

JJ ParTy SeQueL - hP Photo Time!

hehe... time to upload my few photos from my hp.. there's only a few, a pity, coz e place is dark, cant see. or e stage will b all lights up when JJ perform, so too bright to capture his pic too.. so sad rite... hope amanda will upload her cam's photos soon, so I can post up here asap. hehe... anw, some photos r qutie blur, but there's surprises too! hehe... look down!

amanda & me in e concert q!


us again! hehe..


JJ Party Live!


another small board


us! me, amanda, leen


dun get sick of us!


guess who's tis green shirt guy?!


a: Junyang caught on e spot!


look at e lady in black(right). JJ's mama!!! 1gap, 1 seat, 1 row rite in front of me!

Yeah!!! JJ ParTy!!!

hehe... back from JJ party! happy happy happy!

meet amanda early in e morning at tampines, went buy old chang ki fer lunch lor. den meet leen at tanah merah b4 going expo. so many church ppl sia.. who says we kiasu lor, got 51 ppl in front of us when we reach, counting those sitting down de only. e management is so screwed up la.. buy concert tix 1q, holding cd pass 1 q, holding nokia pass 1q.. buy concert tix means got privilege sia.. get to go in 1st.. e weather abit buai tahan sia.. den dun wan to say lor, so many ppl cut q, specifically from u-know-where. mayb I'll consider joining you-know-where lor, so much privilege sia.. anw, jiahui, e ger on my msn, came wif her friend & q wif leen lor. coz leen alone ma, 2 diff q.. jiaqhui'll b going to e concert wif us lo. together wif lilin. she join jjfc lehz... haha... anw, we waited til 5 plus den get to go in buy tix. by e time come to us, e best seats r at e side rows le.. sianz... settle down inside e hall 8 den book seats.. we smuggle 5 of us in wif only 4 concert tix. haha... hehe... bad bad...

saw alot of interesting ppl... know who's JJ's brother & sis-in-law when jiahui told us. wow! JJ's bro dun look like him lo, coz eyes bigger.. haha... den was talking to amanda when junyang pass by my seat lo. wa! so close up sia. haha.. so handsome... wa... *saliva drools* LOL! den j3 came & sit even closer to me.. but e closest hor, I tink is tis lady who's JJ's mum if I'm not wrong. haha.. she veri fashionable fer her age lor.. hehe....

concert started, veri fun lehz!!! JJ got dance & sings, all tt! so cute! *saliva drools again* haha... so amazed everytime c him aso so high.. hehe... anw, xu huan liang laugh veri funny lo.. coz I saw alot of things from my side as I sitting next to & next to behind JJ's relatives all tt! hehe.. nice rite! envious?? den got lin yu zhong aso.. hehe.. too bad he nv sing shi lian xue, wad a nice song... so high so high la! haha... but it's a disappointment when JJ ended e party wif 4 songs nia. so little sia.. =( den we q up go sign concert tix & shake hands! lol... u nv hear wrongly, is concert tix, not cd album. haha.. abit lame rite.. we all go up hand so cold lor. but JJ"s hand so warm lehz!! my 5th time le! yippee! haha.. yeah!!! I'm juz too crazy over JJ!!! go home after tt.

JJ party tmr!!

went to bugis wif qun, ck & leen.. was late.. hehe... knew I'm gonna b late since y'day le.. I can predict sia! walk ard, go buy my thumbdrive, 512mb, coz my 128mb not enuff for tis sem lor.. den walk ard.. went bugis village cafe have lunch/dinner. reasonable pricing lehz.. big serving set meal yet cheap cheap. but no service charge, so service not tt gd lo.. went walk ard b4 going home coz qun wan go back celebrate her dad's b'day.. hehe... JJ party tmr!!

now I SWEAR I realli dislike watching full drama series ! realize I din watch a full drama since mayb sec3?! yeah, I love shows, but I cant stand watching 1 full series w/o skipping a few episodes. I tried watching tt ch U 9pm drama juz only, I realli cant last out there in e living room! 2 chars died, which is like damn sad 2 me sia.. tt time I watch mi tao nu hai, wif wu ke qun tt one. I din finish watching too. too hurtful fer me sia.. scheming girl in tt drama if anyone rmb.. yeah.. I guess I realli cant stand sad or scheming scenes. wow! but I'm trying to watch tis drama wif show & jolin in it. at least it's relaxing. hehe.. though e bad thing is, it's late in e nite.

oh yes, dear friends out there, u know who ur! I'm SO NOT looking 4 a BOYFRIEND! haha... I know ya, I'm juz joking abt tt, haha.. trying to b funny. but thanks for ur kindness huh, friends.. I realli not tt despo stil.. haha... yes, I'm single. and I believe he'll come when he comes.. for e time being, I think I shall do w/o 1 so long.. haha... I MAKE MYSELF VERI CLEAR HOR!

JJ RoCkS oN~~

end of 1st wk of sch! yippee! WSNA wasn't tt facsinating huh.. I guess I most prob will like VDG1 ba.. coz lecturer not as boring as some others. hmm... anw, decided to go home fer lunch de, coz not really tt hungry after tt bag of fries during break. end up nobody at home den I aso nv bring keys.. so bo bian take bus go wei's house stay awhile lor.. haben eat lunch so go eat together. told him abt wad happen y'day, teach me tt bo chup attitude again. coz y shld I b e one compromising, now wan make up for things too late le. betrayed my trust, from a once-I-most-trusted person. dun expect me to change things to suit ur way rite.. okie lor, let u realize it personally.

Time to do some calculations!

Date	Item	QTY
27/01	JING HUA LUN(PICTORIAL BOOK)	1
14/02	CAO CAO ORIGINAL	2
11/04	CAO CAO DVD+PIC BOOK	1
24/04	JUST JJ WORLD TOUR'06(SG) TICKET	1

hey! I proved my sis wrong! coz she say ALL e $$ I earned from popular during e hols r gone. I bet wif her stil got leftover, and I'm right! hehe... minus tt extra $10 I'm not supposed to get, I stil got $1.15 left! okie lor. haha.. trying to b funny... actu I haben include my stamps & envelopes, but those r my leftover from other stuff, so not counted. haha..

DraW a RaiNBoW WiF a sMiLeZz!!!

yep yep! thanks fer all e inspiration, motivation, encouragement from namely u-know-who-u-r(s)! hehe... though I like e bo-chap attitude most from 1 of u. haha... all a sudden so much concern huh.. abit shou chong ruo jing.. hehe... no worries.. I'm super duper ok. haha... yeah, wadever happens, life goes on.

mayb one has been right no doubt. it hasn't been on my side all tis while afterall, y shld I care one bit for a moment? one nv dare, one nv do. miss it for once, miss it for long.. someday it shall b gone. gradually.. but life goes on..

dear friend u're right. I dun deserve to b seen crying or sad. I deserve to b happy. coz all is not worthwhile for my tears. a smile for u! =)

emotions

listening to yu zhong's shi lian xue over & over.. din bother to change my playlist.. again. 1st time after so long.. cry.. it's not abt e song itself. sad melody I guess. plus wad I'm thinking.. emotions juz flow I guess. nv dare. tt's wad makes it. always say not to tink abt it. juz today, ********. cant help it. if it is so, let it happen. if it is not, let it go. playing dun help. certainly there's an ans. will b fine once again I guess.

3rd day of sch...

today wake up super early go sch la.. den blur blur sia... haben wake up... SAPD is abit draggy la... cher waste time during lecture, set up her laptop lo.. so sianz... taught khay write e wrong version of Jerrl's cheena name, coz dunno how to write e real one. haha... can c how bored we r rite! raining heavily sia... went fc5 for lunch, wif suet & goldie again! hehe... super many ppl, got cca drive mah... den went T821 fer gems wif qun & ck.. maths games & puzzles. ck was amazing! he was sleeping when we solving puzzle, den he wake up solve faster than us.. =.= was released quite early so follow qun go cca drive coz she going to help astro. den on e way in fc3, saw FS! lol.. yes, FS, Popular tt one.. surprised forgot who ask me izit beside her alot of guys.. haha... too bad no la..

anw, no CO sessional today, so can go home lor. actu tot qun need 2hr so wan go home 1st. but at platform den tell me wait til 4pm. so I go 1st lor.. haha... missed a train coz tot wan wait for qun. so bored den called leen chat on hp. ********** ********** crap wif leen.. haha...

1st day of sch

1st day of sch... beginning of my 2nd yr poly life.. a new start? or not?

anw, 1st lesson so boring.. SAPD... combination of java, wcd & dbms.. wa... sicko module.. haha... crap sia... mayb not e module boring, but e lecturer la... wa.. so sianz lor, can fall asleep sia... SAPD class got 23 ppl..

after so long de SAPD, finally is break. met goldie & suet for lunch.. miss them lor.. too bad cant meet leen & huiyi too, coz break time diff sia.. but nvm, we going JJ party on sun together!!! yeah!!!

after lunch is INSE lor.. get to c my les & 22 de ppl. =P e lecturer tok quite interesting la.. but so lame la... he's our ptn aso lor.. after lecture is his tutorial aso.. intro ourselves lor. tis time INSE got 29 ppl.. wa... den muz go photocopy tutorial notes. how to collect class fund sia? dun even know e exact no of ppl from e class lor.. japalang class lehz.. haha...

hope tmr will b a better day! hehe...

New Term sTarTinG...

my last post fer e holiday! last day of hols... finally it's coming to an end... dunno whether it's a gd thing or not.. year 2 le... enjoyed my days in year 1 alot I muz say.. in e midst of lots of complaints of sianz, I stil enjoy my hols. so many ppl to pei me thruout e hols.. I shall miss e days wif most of them.. sad sad...

shall b seeing new classmates tmr too.. of coz got old classmates la.. hope tmr will b a fun day! =P hmm... yeah!!! I love sch!

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11/4 - meet qun at tampines mrt coz she morning went tm help friend find ipod. actu meeting leen at city hall mrt de, end up qun's 2 friends, jim & tong ming, aso join us lor.. leen was early lehz! haha.. at 1st wan go ichiban boshi eat den shun bian support ps & suet, but nv c them there, den e lunch deal is at 3pm. we hungry like siao le, so change go eat at pastamania lor. after lunch we go tbc check our salary, coz I got $10 more than them. end up is dunno who write wrong time fer me la. 1st day start at 2pm, we even late abit lor. den dunno who go write 12pm fer me.. tt's y got tt 2hr extra lor. muz clarify 1st, I nv cheat their money, coz can recognize not my handwriting. too bad fer popular... hehe... den walk walk ard, take e free-ride bus from marnia sqaure to orchard coz qun's friend wan buy xiao jia huo. end up cine de xiao jia huo got short legs, fake de. actu wan but JJ's Cao Cao Qing4 Gong1 album at cine de sembemwang, but $2 more than other outlets lor, so nv buy from there. den qun's friends take bus go inline culture while we go taka walk walk. went kino look fer file, but dun have. den go cold storage coz leen wan buy choco, qun shun bian buy her yogurt ice-cream. after tt, we go orchard mrt de popular buy our files. Qun bought those popular de transparent file, den I buy cute cute de.. oh ya, bought my JJ Cao Cao Qing4 Gong1 album aso. hehe..


JJ Qing4 Gong1 front

JJ Qing4 Gong1 back

JJ Qing4 Gong1 contents =P

e 2 booklets inside

Cao Cao

my file

baby slyvester cute rite??

hmm... wad am I thinking??

12/4 - went sch fer CO tis afternoon, den so "heng" so many yr1 go back sch from flag-raising day. so many ppl lor... den my cher late again la.. aiyo... heng today is play e easy ones lor. play rhythm lor. mu rhythm lousy la, cannot blame aso. haha.. next wk playing small pieces of songs le. die... help!!! got a surprise! look!

my new notebook. cute mah??
notebook pg

snoopy & woodstock nail clipper
cute lehz..

oh yes, I dun like e cut-off at e sch timetable, so I made my own timetable last nite in e dark le. though not veri nice, but nicer than sch de! my own timetable! lol..

In SeaRcH FeR B'daY SonG?

when u're REALLI bored, u can really tink of all sorts of stuff to do.. restrict myself to watch 1 dl per day only. or else muz tink of many things to do. anw, was tinking how old my blog is le. so browse back my veri veri 1st entry. can u believe it? I actu started a blog on fri 13th.. bad day??lol... anw, 1 mth & 3days more to my blog b'day.. okie la.. lame ritez.. hmm... yeah...

hmm.. how to say lehz.. juz tt so many things happen over e yr lor.. happy memories, sad memories... u name it.. yeahs.. some will b my best memories of coz, some I rather forget.. but 1 special one I shall keep it inside e deepest of my heart.. we know wad it is la, dun need say out liao.. it's juz so amazing how things work out... from understanding to misunderstanding... from misunderstanding to understanding... all tis while I've realize many many facts.. all tis time to show I've realli grown from e past.. almost 5 months.. things realli work out huh... a brand-new turnout of friendship.. plus 2 & 1/2 yr of understanding.. tt's wad we all wan it to b about.. tis is wad things turn out. back to square one happily.. yesh... and lastly, thanks for all tt is given & forgiven.. Everlasting Friendship Goes On... =P

Blogging again.. hehe...

05/04(wed) - went sch 4 cello in e afternoon. reach sch quite early, den only e pipa cher & 1 student there nia. my cher was quite late la, so at 1st I tot he dun wan come le. coz e day b4 he tot I was SCO de, den SCO thu den got prac, so he told me no prac. den me plan 2 go out wif qun le, ask qun tink where 2 go mah. end up he sms back say his mistake lor, stil got prac. den sianz lor.. muz sms qun back tell her dun need plan le mah. so my msg was tis, "Qun, cannot go le. my cher blur sia, tot tmr thu. sianz.." but qun say she nv receive, so I tot my hp got prob. but at nite den realize I replied wrongly to my cher! argh!!! too late.. but heng he din mind la.. but stil super stressed sia... 1-to-1 teaching.. play til hand pain sia..
anw, cello's short of players la.. den my senior graduate last sem le. but he stil got come back la. so he ask cher can let me join big grp not, but cher say cannot, dun wan give me stress. den ask my senior listen how I play my last finger den know y I stil cant make it la. coz my last finger realli weak lor, die die aso cant press hard.. tot my senior gave up? no lor.. he loiter ard in CO room when he know cher releasing me soon. den he wait cher go off le den call me back lor. ask me how's cello after almost 1 yr prac.. den ask me if next time got small performance can join not, say dun need worry abt my last finger de.. cunning rite.. haha...

06/04(thu) - today wake up at 9am, coz 10am gotta choose gems.. few of us choosing e slacky maths games & puzzles module together. hehe... same time slot as ck, so we plan hao which class to sign up. but at 10am, e class we supposed choose no seats le, so ask ck pick class 05 instead lor. so both of us got into 05. den go msn den realize hl aso same time slot as us! lol... I din know tt, so din jiang hao wif him, end up he pick 04 lor. den at 1pm is jerrl, th, qun,khay, shian's time slot.. now got jiang hao wif qun & shian to pick either 04 or 05, so qun got into 05 too. but coz of some miscommunication btw her & hl, shian din get any places, so muz wait til next slot lor. heard tt jerrl same 04 as hl lor. anw, shian din get 04 or 05 in e end la.. was looking out 4 her e whole evening to c if anyone drop wed class den pick up fer her, but nobody wan drop, so pick up fri class for her. hope shian can crash our wed class successfully ba.. hehe...
anw, got qun to play maple today! tell her how to patch & stuff den lent her my oOoJJLiNoOo play. haha... so fun lor.. me, leen, qun play together. bring qun ard to explore. 1st time c a girl dunno how to jump rope. coz she not used to 2D game? den heard tt ck wan play aso. haha...

07/04(fri) - same routine as usual lor. wake up, wash up, check mail, watch 1 of e downloaded show featuring JJ again, eat brunch, play comm blah blah.. but hor, when my lulu tell me mayb he not studying anymore, I shocked dao lor.. whose fault la.. dun wan let him go poly, when his result can juz scrape thru, but he dun wan go ite lor. so he say c how lor, mayb go private or go work liao.. hmm... life goes on..

08/04(sat) - went hougang meet qun go auntie's house cut hair again. rain again sia.. 2x go auntie house aso rain. haha... cut my fringe to suit my parting lor.. hmm.. not so bad la.. den after cut hair go ps eat lunch. or rather my super late brunch ba.. ard 3pm le den go pastamania eat.. qun got half plate left lor.. coz I aso feel quite alot tis time, but I hungry la, stil finish my food. haha.. den walk abt lor.. ask ck come out, coz he meeting qun eat dinner later, den we dunno where to go le. me wan go charge dian aso mah! haha... walk to orchard from ps shop shop while waiting fer ck to come down town. ck bought ipod nano(izit?! I blur blur) fer qun lor! I aso wan! lol... so I tell ck I waiting fer International Friendship Day lehz.. haha...

anw, juz come home den browse 100kan webbie again! dunno lehz... juz during e hols feel bored so download many variety shows come watch lor. dun feel like watching ou xiang ju or long shows lor, coz muz chase, veri tiring sia.. my concentration span not so long mah.. den now addicted to watching all sorts of variety shows le! hehe... actu all sorts is rather a vague description coz e all sorts is coz got JJ den dl de. got tis show, "Tian Cai Xiang Qian Chong", I dl til siao lor, coz of tt glimpse of 5-8min of JJ, I dl 2 episode of e series le. den now e 3rd one was screen y'day, so found its bittorrent juz only. hehe... but den, I esp "Kang Yong Dang Jia" too, coz e way he tok is hilarious & interesting lor. he tok in a sense, he's quite knowledgable lor. eh... anw, I found tis bittorrent featuring JJ on Yu Le Bai Fen Bai @ Wo Jia Ye You Dai Ming Xing!!! tink it'll b screened on ch U tis coming mon ba.. but now, I'm enjoying dl-ing e file rite now. hehe...

@**@JJ ParTy@**@

okie! ta-da!!! here's pics of my ticket stub of JJ party! forget to take e other time. now I already sent e other side for e lucky draw le.. nice nice.. heehee..


front


back


cd wif my 2 tix



another one =p

Slacky

yuppie, slack at home lehz.. wanna go out, but lazy to plan. I told qun say if she wan me to plan outings rite, unless it's gonna do wif JJ, she wan wait til next yr. rain whole day. but who cares.. as long as there's e tv & com to accompany me, I dun care.

3 more dls to go, 6 more dls to watch. A JJ show a day keeps zx super happy. haha... JJ's on yu le bai fen bai today! sort of got e feeling he's going to be on leh, so actu plan to nap but nv lor. heng nv nap sia. haha... so hilarious sia... xiao zhu la, keep pretending to cry, so so so funny lor.. i wonder y e show stil belongs to ASOS. I watch e show coz of xiao zhu. lolz...

anw, I realize I haben contact tis person fer veri long. I dunno.. it's juz... yah... last time every little happy or sad thing tis person is e 1st one to know. but now, I din even bother to even tink of tis person. coz u tink u can handle everything dun mean I'll b satisfied. mayb tis person will nv know I dislike him/her now. mayb he/she will nv know at all. Betrayed trust shall nv b easy to gain back. wadever it is...

Just JJ =P

Yeah! today go view www.jjlin.name for JJ's party details. finally after waiting for so long.. JJ's holding his concert tour in June! Yeah!!! Three Cheers For JJ! Yippee! Details for JJ party & JJ concert will b as follows:

JJ Party
23rd April 2006 (Sun)
7pm
Singapore Expo Hall 8

Just JJ Tour 2006 (Singapore)
24th Jun 2006 (Sat)
8pm
Singapore Indoor Stadium
Ticket @ $68, $88, $108, $128

JJ party holders are not only going for e exclusive party, but aso get to buy e concert tix in prior. hehe... muz start saving now sia... coz zhenxiu's theory is, if u wan go, buy e most ex tix. if u juz wanna go & listen live, buy a cd home listen cheaper. haha... yippee! 1 more thing down my wishlist.. my wishlist like going to empty soon hor... muz go tink more thing I wan buy. lol...