Seriously, it has never dawned on me that it is her fault. Because it isn’t at all.

I don’t understand why people think it’s unfair to me. I really don’t think so at all. And just because I said all those things, it doesn’t mean I’m blaming her. Maybe people interpret me wrongly. I’m just stating my considerations, and nothing more than that. In fact, there isn’t any issues with who should be the one doing what & who should not, but they’re just some thoughts that we have to take note of.

I don’t see why it is unfair to me. Some people think I should not be the one giving up on everything because of her. Then again, why should she be the one giving up everything because of me? And there is no reason she has to ask for my opinions on everything she is going to do that is going to affect me. It is her freedom afterall. And whatever that is going to affect me, it is up to me to decide how everything is going to be settled later on. I do have a choice afterall. It really doesn’t mean it is her fault just because she has to be inside some portions of my considerations. I really think it is very unfair to her.

To be frank, she is someone who gains my respect for her. Not just a wonderful friend/partner, but a great supporter as well. I'm truly glad that it is her, and not someone else. People will most probably not understand how I feel towards this kind of thing. I don't think I will be disappointed with how things are going to turn out to be. I guess the sense of belonging is clinging on very well. =D


On the other hand, what I am really disappointed about, are some other things that I don't really touch on anymore. I guess I either rarely talk to some people, or totally don't talk to them anymore. What are friends to everyone anyway? If one day I stopped chasing/loving the same idol as you anymore, does it mean I am no longer your friend? This is a very cruel fact that some people have been showing me. Just because I seem to be less involved in chasing my favourite idols. Just because I stop talking about them anymore. Just because if there is no idol talk, there is nothing we can talk about already.

Everyone has to realize, "I'll support my favourite idol FOREVER." will become a lie some day. If you don't believe me, then you'll be lying to yourself. If you still don't believe me, we can see what will happen 30, 40, 50 years from now. You'll have to believe me one day. I'm confident about this.

Okay, I'm just sidetracking to rant because I just find it a pity a few people don't realize what went wrong in our friendship, and why I stopped salvaging them, and they didn't stop to treasure it as well.


Anyway, I hope I can go KTV with ZARA LB this coming Saturday! No promises! But I really want to meet up with them!