Give me courage

I have been a lot acting on my own recently.

I don't really like the feeling of being on my own & acting on my gut feeling. Even though everyone has appreciated my efforts in making the right decisions for them in the end, so far so good, I still have that jittery feeling that I did not perform what they should have expected. Afterall, these decisions are not supposed to be performed by me in the first place. I just feel that I am just going to screw something up because I have not seek for the advices that I should.

This is so contradicting!

I just don't understand why I am so worried, even though I have been doing a good job in whatever I'm helping out so far. I guessed it is because they are all major decisions. I know everyone trusts me enough to handle, but I guess I just don't trust myself.

Everyone give me the encouragement I can do BIG things. They trust me so much and they have the confidence to push me to go for them. But I do not have the confidence that I need to give myself. I seriously need it! Sometimes I know myself that I can do it, but I just want to make sure I do it well.

I need the courage to take the big step forward in order to overcome this mental barrier, seriously..