It was a day without CSC Day peeps.

I should be enjoying my nice break from all the hard work for the past few weeks. But I was on the verge of crying instead.

I know I was moody for some reasons recently. But I didn't really show out my feelings to everyone who was around me. In fact, I was smiling to whoever I saw. I guess I'm not a person who will show my feeling on my face that easily unless it is really serious.

I have been trying to hide my emotions from the CSC Day peeps almost everyday. I am really unhappy recently. But they are not the reason for my unhappiness, so I do not want to affect them just because I'm moody. They are the ones who take my thoughts away, not thinking about anything else, but stuff on CSC Day. I feel happy around them, because I tend to forget about unhappy things. It can be very tiring at the end of the day, but I really enjoy their company.

As I try very hard not to express my true feelings, I hate it when people take it out on me just because they're unhappy themselves. I don't understand why so many people like to take it out on me these few days. Is it because I seem to be happy-go-lucky all the time to you? When I'm happy, you would want to dampen my mood? So sad to say, I'm not as happy as you may think as well. I just feel so wronged that these people are treating me like that without considering about how I truly feel. All they care is about themselves.

It was a day without CSC Day peeps indeed. Without them to be there to cheer me up with all sorts of nonsense we have everyday we meet.

I haven't been blogging for a long time because I have been busy with CSC Day props making. We have been going back to school almost every single day! It is kind of tiring going to school in the morning and ending in the evening, and the process repeats. But I really enjoy the company when we are together. It beats doing nothing at home yeah.. And we have a lot of fun! =D

I went back to work after missing work for 1 week last week. And Jack was finally in the office! When he saw me, his 1st sentence was, “好久不见”.. Funny... And I asked him about sponsoring CSC Day which he was okay with it! Yay!!! And he also gave me my long-awaited pay! It's kind of funny that my pay is really peasy since I only work whenever I can. My 2-month pay is like a day worth of pay working at C3 fair. Hahaha...

Today is also the release of our exam results! I'm quite happy with my results even though it sucks compared to most people in CSC Day OC. But heck! My CAP went up by 0.13! I shall continue to aim for CAP 3.0 next semester! Surprisingly, I got all B- except for CS2106! Siao lor! I actually got B for CS2106! Haha... I thought the module is going to be 1 of the worst, but it's actually the best! Haha... And I don't need to S/U my GEM! Hee...

Lastly! I went shopping with Angela at Causeway Point y'day! Totally crazy! I bought so many things! Haha... And of course! I finally bought my JJ 《第几个一百天》 album!!! It's a really great album with a lot of JJ's feelings in it. The words he wrote are really touching! I like the jazz like song written by Rynn - 《一个又一个》! Actually the songs in this album are all very nice! =D


Okay... Time to go to bed! I keep falling asleep in buses & MRTs and missing my stops recently. I guess I'm really tired! BB! =D

I'm sorry

**Moved**
I was never a good leader. And I know I will never be. If I am, I'll have never let you feel that way.

That is why I am very appreciative for having a good leader myself. And I'm willing to do so many things for her which I believe I will never do for anyone else. She may not be the best for all you may think, but she gave her best to me. She may forget things that she needs to do, but she will never forget things she promised me to do. The anxiety she took away from me when she senses it from me. The many, many things a lot of people do not think she will do, but she did.

The more I feel that she has given to me, the more I feel inferior for not being able to play the similar role back to you. The difference why I could accomplish so much with her around and enjoy getting busy and the challenges faced, and why I feel more and more disheartened even though I know I can accomplish so much more that I know I could have and have more than enough the capability to do so, but didn't manage to.

I'm sorry.
I've decided to move this post to somewhere more private.

I guessed I'm just being emo.

But I'm really tired out by the bare truth.

The love that is everlasting

Just a little thought from the little mind...

How would you feel or what will you do if one day, JJ does not come back to Singapore for any promotions or events anymore?



Do you have an answer?



I'm proud to say, I have a very clear answer.


Rynn not being able to come to Singapore for his promo gives me a very definite answer. Even though I still find it a pity that I wasn't able to go for his concert in Genting, but it does not mean anything bad. I didn't find myself complaining much about all the not being able to see him and stuff like that.

This is because it is not the physical human that I am supporting only. I support JJ & Rynn because I support their music. Seeing them in person is definitely a bonus. To be honest, when we were told that Rynn was coming to Singapore anymore after getting excited for a few weeks, I was truly disappointed. But disappointment doesn't stay long. It wasn't because I didn't miss Rynn. I do miss him. However, it is the fact that I have his music to keep me going on. Rynn isn't here, but his music sure does stay on. 5 new songs are not a lot. But I fall in love with them slowly 1 by 1. I can feel the passion he leaves in his music. Seriously, nobody have any idea when Rynn will be coming to Singapore again. But for sure, my love for Rynn and his music is going to stay in me for as long as he continues to pursue his passion in music.

Demanding will only cause a loss in you. Your yearning in wanting to see him more and more will only cause you to lose your initial faith in his music. In the end, you'll never realize what you're supporting him for, for the close contact that he gives you, or the initial love for his music no matter where he is.

For JJ, I'm sure I'll have the same feeling. The feeling that will never change or fade... =D

Seriously, I'm really pissed off.

What does it mean by all that nonsense? Do you even understand how stressed I am because of what had happened? Although it isn't anyone's fault, but can you be more considerate for me? I'm not like you. With 1 thing to concentrate on and nothing else. But I have more than I can handle right now. Can't you just be more sensitive?

I know you might be thinking I'm not managing myself well, so it's all my fault. But please think again, nobody expected that to happen. When that happened, you only have to take on only about 20% more responsibility. But it's different for me. I have to take up more than double of that responsibility.

When she demands from you, you in turn demand from me. Why has it turned into my problem instead? I wasn't the one who decide on things, I don't even have much say. And when things crop up, your tone just sounded so pissed off with me because I can't keep up to my tasks. Is it my fault it was you who gave me that allowance and wanted to take it back suddenly? You should be defending me, shouldn't you? If you explain to her, she'll understand. From my understanding of her, I know she would. But you didn't even bother to give her an explanation & give me that stupid reply.

Honestly, when I gave you my reply, there is something you can do. But you didn't. If it was her, and I gave her the same reply, I'm sure she'll make that decision that you didn't make. Both her & your problem will be solved, instead of delaying the problem further to me.

700th POST!

700th POST!



BE AMAZED! SURPRISED!


I'm going to do a special post again!


This post is deliberately scheduled to be up on 07/12/09. =D


F-i-r-s-t..... JJ!


7th album - 《第几个100天》!

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《第几个100天》
词：姚若龙 曲：林俊杰

我 把爱铺成蓝天
让不安的妳 一抬头就看得见
我 把心烧成火焰
让怕黑的妳 拥着温暖入眠

我晓得 时间如雪 有时候会覆盖一切
但是真爱 一如倔强会重生的绿叶

第几个一百天 还是很有感觉
用眼睛去素描 妳内心的世界
第几个一百天 也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵 连命运都改变

曾有的敏感脆弱
在我的胸口 你就躺下来别说了
将有的固执冲动
我也会拥抱妳安抚着体谅妳心疼着Wooh ~Wooh~

第几个一百天 越来越有感觉
用眼睛去素描 妳内心的世界
管过多少一百天 也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵 连命运都改变
当守护变信念 连泪水都很甜

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N-E-X-T.... Rynn!

《7天追到你》



and

《活到一百岁》






Seems like everything fits just nice for me to write my 700th post! Haha...

Simple yet meaningful! With both JJ & Rynn again! =D

699th Post! It's all about Rynn! =D

699th Post! =D


Rynn's 至尊大排档！ =D


Some parts of the video are really funny! I totally laughed so loudly to myself when he said he'll 忘词 the first time he sings his new song. It was super funny at 2:07 of the 1st part video! It was like only the 2nd sentence and he really forgot! His scratching head with his sheepish look while "nahnahnah-ing" is really hilarious!

But the most important part is, I'm touched at his 真情流露 at some parts of his interview. 找回了当初支持宇中的感觉。。 Even though he does not have great ambitions about what he wants, but his passion for music is everlasting. Even though his songs are mostly that fanciful with all kinds of instruments or mixing, but it is exactly the simplicity of his music that I like about him. 喜欢弹吉它的宇中, 喜欢最简单的宇中。。

Anyway! At least the company puts in effort to get his MVs done instead of doing rubbish like the previous album. =D

EXAMS ARE OVER! =D

YAY!!!


EXAMS ARE OVER! =D



Thanks to those who congratulated me on regaining my freedom! Like woah! I'm really surprised! I think I was annoying because I kept complaining they were celebrating their freedom while I was still having my exams. They could have just ignored me for all they care. I thought I was an emo-ing nuisance. Hahaha..

But yesterday, some of them actually came to find me online just to celebrate the end of exams with me! And I'm really surprised at the particular people who actually did that, those I didn't expect them to even think about me at all! I'm so happy!

Anyway, the programme cell met up to discuss about our plans for CSC Day at City Hall. It was really an enjoyable meeting with Zur, HTHT, Michelle & JH. I think our bonding wiil be great! Real business starts now! We have so much things to research on! But I'm not complaining about it, because it's going to get really fun soon! =D

Exams are officially over! And I fall sick too. Boo.. What a time to get sick! There's many things to do next week! I need to get well soon!

I'm so proud to have a stalker! wahaha...


She's none other than....


HTHT!


She has been reading my blog occasionally since dunno when lor! I don't even know that until last night! Eeyer! She doesn't even remember where she blogs hop from! So dangerous right! Now I'm so scared! I don't even know who else read it! Haha...

But I do welcome HTHT! Coz I know I haven't badmouthed her before. And now I know she reads sometimes, so the more I won't badmouth about her. Wahaha! The fact shall remain as I INSIST she's a stalker of mine from now.

Boy, I do love this stalker though! wahaha...

Just in case, my stalker happens to read this as well.. She loves to nag... so I shall go mug now! =P

Just a short post before mugging for my last paper on Sat.


Today's CS2105 exam was still considered okay to me.. Considering I randomly browsed through the last few chapters and didn't manage to understand some stuff well enough. I just hope I can get an average score. Oh well...

I seriously think some people are rather inconsiderate. I know your exams are over. But not everyone's exam has ended. And I don't see why I went to interrupt you people when I was not mugging. Yet some people just think their exams are over, and other people are supposed to entertain their needs.

And I don't mean people who are celebrating their end of exams. It's their rights to celebrate their freedom and not wait until all gloomy humans finish their exams to do so afterall. I'm not so petty.

It's those selfish and thoughtless assholes who start gloating over people who are finishing their papers later than them.