I hate people who take me for granted

I hate being the nice-oh-goody person I am.

I was taught to be nice to others, so that others would be nice to me as well, since young. But that's not the case at all. What they never teach me is, be nice to others, and be taken for granted.

I admit I'm not the nicest person on earth. When I'm not happy knowing I'm being taken for granted, I will still put on a smile on my face. But I do complain to the nicest people I know behind the back. If you do not hear me complain, it's either I'm not close to you, or you're not one of the nicest people I know.

Whenever I complain to them, they always tell me, "dun get bullied by others so easily!" They tried to teach me to be selfish. Being nice to people who take my kindness for granted are not worth my friendship.

Know why I would never show that I'm unhappy about being taken for granted? That's because I do not want things to turn nasty and friendships to go sour unless they have to. And, people will think I'm being picky over what they may think as "petty". I guess that's why people do not know what is serious & what is minor, and thus they dunno if they're taking someone for granted. Since they dunno, and I dun tell them, they'll never know and continue the vicious cycle of taking advantage of others. Sometimes, some people just think that I should be doing those for them and they deserve it. No, there's nothing as "I should & you deserve", and if you think so, the more you dun deserve it from me at all.

Think again. Do you think I'm selfish at times? If you think I am, yes I am. If nobody helps me, I'll have to help & protect my own good will by being selfish. People who understand me will know my selfishness is not created by selfwillingness, but created by the people around me. I have to survive like everyone do.

That is why, I do remember kindness. I remember what they do for me, how they appreciate my kindness. Even though I know friendships are not determined by a gesture of appreciation, but sometimes we still need them. A friendship is not maintained by one party who is always giving, and the other party just continue taking. At least, that's not how my friendship works. It's about sharing.