stupid stupid stupid!

Stupid! I'm juz so stupid! ignorant! It'll get me to no where! seeing things too late I muz say. Things tt actu might happen might nv happen again. all I can blame is myself. so many chances tt I din catch, I've nv cherish at all. now miracles will nv happen again. keep telling myself I shall getting by life w/o bothering abt all tis. but I dun tink I can keep it all down. I know I know! ppl who r concerned always ask e same question. it's not tt I'm not bothered, it's coz it's not within my control tt things dun happen! things juz always dun happen e way I wan it to b. coz I'm not e type tt make things happen. it's all coming back to me again.. haiz...