Falling sick...

It has been a long time since I last cried over school/work stuff.

Am I giving myself too much stress?
Am I taking up too much commitments that I should not?
Am I expecting too much of myself?


I have no idea.

Falling sick isn't according to my plans, and it just screwed up many of the things I have to do. I was really upset I could not commit to many things at the last minute just because I am sick. Even though I know nobody will blame me for showing them up last minute because I am sick, but I feel that I need to get them done myself. I want to be there, badly. I became rather pissed off with myself for falling sick. There are too many things waiting for me to do, but just as many things are not going accordingly to plans. I totally hate it.

And that, was the last straw.

I totally broke down.

I didn't expect it.

I desperately didn't want it to start that way.

Why aren't things going according to plans?

I hate it.





And then...



Someone's mere words turned my tears into laughter.

I will not state who he is. But he really made me smile.

When I saw what he wrote, I really ponder.

His words came at the right time.

They shall stay.



I will make it right. =)