I have officially taken up the role of VM assistant in GAW VIII.

It was considered a last minute decision, but it was definitely not a rushed or un-thought decision.

After some several explanations about my other commitments and related stuff, I would like to thank the relevant people who decide to believe in me, especially wing. I know they are just concerned if I could cope with juggling with so many commitments at one go. I really appreciate it very much. Since I have accepted the role, I will give my very best until the end. I don't like give people promises that will be broken in the end.

Regarding my commitments, I have really give a deep thought before taking any 1 of them up.

For JJFC, it is about taking up a leadership role of working with 3 lovely helpers. To me, taking up the role of a committee member is just a change in role name, nothing else. I have been doing this since more than 1 year back. I will still be doing the exact same thing as before, just with a new name of a "leader". In fact, I'm very proud of my 3 helpers, because they lighten my workload a lot. I had to do so much with just Ivalyn helping me alone, and Ivalyn was still learning during that period of time. My current task is more of overseeing & answering their doubts when they need me. I could let go & let them do what they are supposed to do. Sometimes I feel bad about being so strict with them. But I guess that is how we have got such a great team! =)

For T.H.E.S, I will be taking up the new role of secretary. Some people may think of it as a "demotion". Afterall, I was the vice-chairperson. However, I don't see it that way at all. It is just a change of in the role I am going to play. In fact, I do not even think of it as a commitment. Over the past year, T.H.E.S truly becomes my passion. Regardless if I am the vice-chairperson, secretary, or just a normal volunteer, I still belong to the big family. If they say they need me, I'll try my best to be there for them. It is not a chore, but something I want to do myself. I can give up on other commitments, but not T.H.E.S. Therefore, before I accepted the VM role in GAW, I think my only request is , as long as it doesn't clash with T.H.E.S, I will give it a serious thought.

For everything, I'm really thankful to have a boss like Jack. I guess I am really very lucky to find such a rare flexible boss who gives me the freedom to be the busy student for who I am. I can be very honest with him with my commitments as my reasons for missing work. That is one of the greatest support that I could get to go ahead with my non-academic commitments without worries. He definitely deserves a better employee than me, but he never gives up on me. For the same reason, even though many people think my job is low-paying, I still continue to stick with my job. It is not about the money, it is about the people you are working for.

I guessed falling sick for the 2nd time after school re-opens sent me on the rollercoaster of emotions.

I did my portion of Outreach duty for T.H.E.S yesterday. I was rather upset about someone's actions yesterday though. I don't even know if I have the right to be upset with him, because I knew he most probably don't mean it. For those who know who I was talking about, just keep it to yourself. For those who doesn't know, please do not ask. It is just a ranting on my personal space.

First, it was him going around telling people we both know that I made him come back to school just for this on his free day. I guessed if I wasn't feeling unwell, I wouldn't mind at all. He was most probably kidding, but I did not feel really good about it. I mean, I did joke with and suan him about other stuff during this period, like we usually do. But I guessed my sickness just made me more particular about this matter. For 1 thing, it was my free day too, and I came back despite I was already feeling unwell. I didn't mean to complain, because I did it willingly, because I wanted everything to go well. For another thing, I really didn't know it was his free day until he told me. I merely requested if he could be there because there was really nobody who was available. And it was K's free day too, which K told me, so I told him it is ok then. I really didn't know if I should feel guilty as if I forced him to come back, seriously.

The next thing is... I guessed I could not explain myself either. Someone he knew came & chatted with him, and they touched on a topic that passed quite some time back which the person didn't know. To me, I think it was a sensitive topic on my own part, so I didn't say anything. I guessed what he didn't realize is, people smile not only because they think something is funny or they wanted to gloat over something. I smiled because I just felt awkward at the point of time. I didn't think the topic was funny in any sense, like what he thought. I may be a person who jokes and laugh about things a lot, but I would not think this kind of thing is funny or what.

Oh wells...

Falling sick...

It has been a long time since I last cried over school/work stuff.

Am I giving myself too much stress?
Am I taking up too much commitments that I should not?
Am I expecting too much of myself?


I have no idea.

Falling sick isn't according to my plans, and it just screwed up many of the things I have to do. I was really upset I could not commit to many things at the last minute just because I am sick. Even though I know nobody will blame me for showing them up last minute because I am sick, but I feel that I need to get them done myself. I want to be there, badly. I became rather pissed off with myself for falling sick. There are too many things waiting for me to do, but just as many things are not going accordingly to plans. I totally hate it.

And that, was the last straw.

I totally broke down.

I didn't expect it.

I desperately didn't want it to start that way.

Why aren't things going according to plans?

I hate it.





And then...



Someone's mere words turned my tears into laughter.

I will not state who he is. But he really made me smile.

When I saw what he wrote, I really ponder.

His words came at the right time.

They shall stay.



I will make it right. =)

School started today...

Guess what??

I fell sick.


It's so crazy. I swear I will never take bus 95 for convenience's sake even though my ST2334 lectures, which is my 1st lecture on Tuesdays & Fridays, are at Science. It took me 3 buses 95 before I got to board it. With the horribly aching body of mine. And the girl behind me was so inconsiderate this morning. She squeezed in the teeny space behind me while I was still moving in. As a result, she didn't even notice her bag was nudging my back all the time which I had to balance hard to stand properly in the bus.

After my 1st lecture, I went to UHC for consultation. Consultation was quick though. I wonder why doctors earn so much now. I told her my symptoms, she prescribed medicine accordingly. I think the pharmacy could have done the job? Whatever... I just hope it was not the case I'm thinking of.. Bbaahh...

There is so much things to do/commit this week! I hope I can survive with this aching body of mine. Yucks...

My "LONG LOST LOVE"!

My "LONG LOST LOVE"!



Haha... Ok, I mean it has been a very long time since he last came back/released a new song.. Now the guilt is settling in for 劈腿-ing just yesterday after listening to Rynn's new song on the radio. Boo...



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