Confused

I don't know if I'm disappointed. To be more specific, I am disappointed, but I don't know if I deserved to be disappointed. I have been feeling so alone recently. I want it to be better, but I can't do this alone.

And when I heard that comment the other day, I felt defensive. To hear that from someone who used to be in a similar position as me, it really sucks. You left without notice, now you come back and start picking on us. Who are you to criticize us?

You said that things were the best during her time. By judging solely with that component, how can you define it that way? I admit her time was the best too, I can't deny that. But time has changed. People has changed too. Even technology changed. It's true that component you commented about is dying. But it is being replaced by so many other components. And she was the one who indirectly lets everything went out of control. She had her bad judgements too. Nobody gives me the credits of building everything all over again from scratch, literally. I changed the generation. I changed the Factor 'X'.

Even though a few people defended me by saying we got an award during my generation, I have to admit it is not all because of my effort. I have to say, the award came coincidentally when I was taking charge, it wasn't solely my credit for those things I have done. It could have came previously when my generation was just about to begin, but someone else was just more suitable than us at that point of time. So now it is our turn. But then again, if I have let it deterioriate for all I care, I don't think we even deserve that right now. In short, I was the one who maintained our image to convince people we still deserve it.

On a side note, it totally sounds wrong to be happy. I had missed that someone previously. Now tt someone is back to talk to me, which cause me to be happy. Does it sound wrong to be missing that someone that I most probably should not be missing? It's confusing. I know it is somehow wrong, but I can't control myself.

Projects are tiring

I guess it's kind of a relief after finishing these 2 papers (partially for 1).

After procrastinating so much in the weekend, I've finally completed that darn tutorial assignment within 6 hours without knowing what I wrote anyway. And I finished the other paper, which is part of a group report, in 2 hours. That one was easier because we already have information on the topic. There is discussion meeting tomorrow morning though. Sigh...

I wish this semester will be over soon. Though I may not be looking forward to next semester as well. Everyone says it would be a hell semester since I'm going to take that 8 MC project module. I don't if I should be happy or not, because I'll be working with my eyecandy! But that's another thing right.. Projects are always horrible, even though exams are worse.

Please let me pass this week peacefully since most of the projects are due with 1 project report due next Monday. 1 word - Tired..

At times like this...

Okay, my blog is truly dead..

Have been so busy with project deadlines, tests & quizzes, and many many more school-related stuff. Exams are coming, but I totally feel so unprepared! =( Therefore, I haven't had the time to blog about many things, including our E-awards performance on 13 March 2010, JJ events on 28 March 2010, and THES major outing.

I know it won't take much time to blog to many people, but I just take a lot of time to blog. Haha... Even though I have been procrastinating and wasting time here and there which I could take to blog, but I just feel that free time is not for something like blogging at this point of time. Contradiction! Boo...

Come to think of it! I should change my main blog to JJFC (SG) OMY blog! I "blog" there more than I blog here now. Muahaha... Oh well... I can't help it when it is my commitment! Argh...

ANYWAYS! I bought 言承旭's 9314 Pictorial book last night! So happy yet so broke! I was hesitant about buying as I'm so afraid it would be an impulse buy when I get all addicted to Jerry Yan in after watching 就想赖着你 once again after that long-ago 流星花园.. I have to admit he's still as charming as before! However, to be honest, I'm more attracted to the book about his life story instead of his 写真书... I didn't regret buying after all, because the quotes in the book are inspiring and fabulous. =D

Okay, I shall stop procrastinating and get back to reading my darn ERP readings! (Anyway, stop asking me why I study ERP in Computing. It's not Electronic Road Pricing, it's Enterprise Resource Planning, an information system) I need to finish the darn 4% time-consuming tutorial assignment & my part of IT outsourcing project by tonight! =((