If I am a friend to be cared for, why didn't you realize I didn't sound right even though I seemed to sound alright to others?


I guess my fear does settle in in the end, afterall? I wasn't pushy. I wasn't motivated. All I did was, to continue pushing everything back as and when I wish to & don't feel like doing. With some other external related factors adding up, I guess it is even harder to get the same feeling back anymore. Everything seems to be so different to me, so different that I don't like it, but do not have the 动力 to change it back to how it used to be.


On a happier note, Celeste, Ivalyn & I went A.R.K. House to mug yesterday afternoon. I decided very long to make up my mind to meet them. I was lazy to move out of my house & mugging at home seems to save my time travelling. On the contrary, I would probably sleep my whole day away & end up not mugging at all in the end too. Little mugging vs no mugging. I guess a little mugging was better than none at all.

Anyway, I was super excited! I saw so many people whom I don't usually see or don't even expect to see them! As compared to that fact, my fate did not strike on to see that gorilla! The main point is not about seeing those people. It is about not seeing that scary freak. I was praying so hard ok! Hahaha...