well... we celebrated my grandma's 80th b'day @ my 1st aunt's house.. juz more of a simple gathering & sumptuous dinner as usual.. yeah.. we haven told her e truth yet.. everyone agreed to keep secret from her until after her celebration.. so everyone's like discussing in whispers here & thr abt my dad's condition.. e adults had a hard time deciding whether to cancel e celebration not.. but after considering much, we stil decide to carry on as planned lo..

not tt we wan keep my grandma in e dark, but we juz wan her to be happy during her 80th b'day celebration.. it's quite a tough decision to make.. but someone has to break e news to her soon.. haiz.. dunno how she's going to take it.. she's been pestering my mum to go visit my dad..

for me, as much as I wanted to visit my dad, which I did on thu after work, I feared for e moment of seeing him.. I feared e sight of seeing him wif tubes & stuff all over.. not only my dad feel e pain, it pained me to see him in tis condition too.. well.. I broke down as soon as I saw him.. I stood beside his bed, totally clueless of wad to say or do.. I dun dare to touch him for fear of waking him up, as e doc says to keep him asleep to prevent him from feeling pain from those tubes planted on him..

still, I would like to thank those who's been showing concern for me all tis while.. giving me moral & emotional support as much as possible.. really really.. and no words can describe my very owed gratitude to some important ones..

from e sch side, though vernon din really do anything, he did really give me much help.. as I'm scared tt anything might happen anytime, and I'm having my ITP wif my supervisor being not ard, I really need to inform someone in charge.. having tried to call my LO so many times to no avail.. so I've no choice to approach vernon.. he told me I can leave e office if I need to, dun need to worry abt anything.. and he did help me inform my LO too.. which I really veri grateful of..

as for my friends' side, many of them asked abt my dad, which I'm really happy they're concerned for me.. and esp laykim, I can really say she's my very very best friend.. I know I can confide in her anytime, anyday.. 1 word.. she'll agree w/o hesitation as long as she can help.. juz like now during ITP period, I met up wif her so she can print my weekly stuff 4 me.. I know it's troublesome for her, and I'm paiseh too.. but she's nv complained.. and I brought my request further to ask if she can put my tis week stuff into my letterbox in case I cant meet her.. and she agreed.. I really dunno how to thank her as much as I wish to..

rite now, I'm trying to keep myself as positive as possible.. yes, u still can see me joking & laughing wif anyone in person or msn.. coz I dun wan others to worry for me..