I felt so much better after telling him everything that day. I've told some people before. Some understood, but I just felt they weren't the right people who I really want to tell. Nevertheless, I still have to thank them for listening to me. But finally, I told him. Someone who I think I should tell. And I was right. He is the person who understands why I dread hearing some things, and why I made some selfish decisions for myself. His reply and consolation was the answer that I was looking for all this while. Now I feel totally relieved.

I guess I finally get to see a few people's true colours over time. Hurting others just because they want to present their best to others. I was so wrong for so long. What is a close friend? Someone who claims to be yours? I cannot imagine I took so long to realize. Her so-called close friends... I realized she has so many close friends. So many she doesn't want to lose any. But she lost me eventually. I guess I cannot stand that she has to decide between 2 "close" friends, and giving in to the other friend who was in the wrong, just for the sake of her own benefits. I was so silly to confide in her, and another one whom I totally thought I could trust. But I was wrong. But luckily, it is over too. I just want to say, humans can lie, but pictures will never lie. They will tell the truth one fine day to expose humans' lies.

Some other things, I really don't want to dig further into the truth anymore. It doesn't matter to me if they want to continue about those nonsense. Somehow, I think those undesirable circumstances then made my life easier now. I appreciate the freedom I get to enjoy during this holidays, and the time I get to spend with people whom I really miss hanging out with.