第２１屆金曲獎 林俊傑 演唱

This is an extremely impressive performance. This is JJ.

Tired!

I AM EXHAUSTED!

I know that I would have an extremely hectic week ahead, and Monday would most probably be the slackest. But I guess I’m wrong! Haha…

Due to the SC CC boo-boo incident, we had ourselves busy like crazy today. Folding the letters, franking the envelopes, slotting into and sealing the envelope. You may think it’s so easy. But imagine doing it manually for 4 thousands of them! I think they will be more tomorrow. MADNESS! Okay, I should not complain too much, because I volunteered to help M. on my own accord after finishing my work. Haha…

Seriously, who expects a simple complaint to the ST Forum would lead to becoming a havoc case, resulting in us fussing over the matter. Many people in other forums were giving this person who created the problem for us bad comments & think he made a big fuss out of nothing. A few of the management became stressed as they have to be held responsible & follow up on the matter after the letters are sent out.

Oh well, I hope similar things will not happen in the other department, because I know it was a terrible experience. Imagine someone else had to repeat it all over again. I know the torture!

Smiles

If you asked me whether I’m disappointed once again, I frankly have to say I’m not really affected by it. If I am, in any way, affected, I think the only thing is that I disappointed Wing with such a result.

I believe that when one door closes to my chance, another door for hope will be open for me somewhere. It is just that I have not found the key to open it yet. =D

I suppose I take it as a hint that I am not ready to take up a new commitment together with the coming 8-MC module I need to take. Even though I’m not greedy, but I really hope to hit at least third lower honours when I graduate in 3 semesters’ time. I know it might be a lil tad tough, but I want to believe I can do it.

I hope I’m not being too optismistic! I am satisfied with what I have in life right now! Anything more will be too much to ask for, seriously! Smile! =D

A great week!

This week has been great for me! =D

Things have been going smoothly as I prayed for them to be & many good incidents happened on the way that I have never expected at all. I am a happy girl!

That day in J’s office together with F. All I can say is, it was a wonderful learning point for me. I think I learnt so much after stepping out of his office that day. Brilliant! I seriously suspect J can read my mind, and does it really well. He knew my doubts inside out without having me to say anything. Oh gosh! I never knew he observed so much, because he didn’t say anything much usually. They weren’t bad comments though. It shows that he is an easygoing man. Furthermore, he was not pushy at all & I was given a choice to consider. I knew my decision was not the answer he wanted, but he was totally cool about it & respected my decision. Totally different from M who was quite persistent.

Oh yes! I won a pair of tickets to Marina Bay Sands opening concert from YES 93.3! JJ will be there to perform! Somehow, it was kind of fated for me. I only began to listen to YES 93.3 in the morning again the week before because I needed peace at work. When I turned on the radio on Monday, the first thing I heard was JJ’s name being read out in the middle of a song. As I wasn’t working in the afternoon that day, as usual, I went home to search YES 93.3 website to check if there is information about the timeslot(s) that is/are giving out tickets as well besides the morning show. I was lucky to find out that they were giving out a pair of tickets each to the 1st 5 listeners who mailed in our particulars to its email. And yes, so I was the 1st 5. =D I wanted so much to ask Ms Ivalyn along! She has been saying she wanted to date me out for nuts! But sadly, she wasn’t able to make it. In the end, I asked Ms Carol along who finally gave me a positive answer on her approved leave on Friday. Yay! We’re going to see JJ!

And to those unreasonable people, I hope you will stop being jealous about me or others winning the tickets. I do not see why I should share details about how to win the tickets when I don’t even know you. Moreover, we won them in our own rightful ways. Neither do I expect you to tell me how to win some other tickets if you do not know me. Like hello, there is no free lunch in the world. If you do not put in efforts to find them yourselves, then don’t blame others. The world is unfair, mind you!

I believe things get better when you believe they will get better by the day. It happens to me! =D

I love THES! =D

Learnt something new from the new volunteer today. =D

In fact, I feel that today’s visit was great & slightly different despite the “low” volunteer count. I was with the canto group, and it was a new experience for the new volunteer and his girlfriend for once. I could see that they enjoyed the dialect crash course we had with the 2 elderly we visited even though they feared for the idea of joining a dialect group they didn’t know how to speak. We had fun. And perhaps stoning when we didn’t understand some portions. Haha…

Mdm Chua was happy to see us! I was sure she was looking forward to us helping her “frame” up her certificate that she got from work during her past employment. She was so proud of it. Luckily I didn’t disappoint her. I totally forgot about it until last night when it was too late to buy a clear plastic folder. Now I really think neighbourhoods are great because they have everything! After some persuasion, she convinced us to let her treat us to drinks at the nearby coffeeshop. It was a new setting to be experienced, talking over drinks and coffee. I like the idea, but not too often I guess! Haha… However, she kept nagging to treat us to lunch which we refused totally. Even though food are cheap in that area, but we were there for volunteer work after all, so it wasn’t nice to let our elderly treat us.

After the visit, most of us went for lunch together. It was great to hang out together for interaction over lunch, a time to cherish with all volunteers. C.H. gave us a shock when we asked for bill. We were joking about asking him to treat, like always, and he had really paid in advance! In the end, B.Y. chased him for some distance trying to pay him back, but he refused. Thanks! We already had ideas what we’re going to do with the money pooled! Haha…

Anyway, yes, today’s volunteer count was considered low as compared to the usual number. This year. I am not complaining. I would just like to say, I really appreciate every single volunteer, even if they appeared for only once. I have never taken for granted the statistics of our volunteer count each visit. In fact, I feel much fortunate and blessed for everything to go smoothly in my year of running as the vice. As compared to the previous year when I was a freshie, we really had much more volunteers this year. If we really have to look back, I totally have to appreciate any number of volunteers we have today, be it today or the past few weeks. Of course, I still hope our volunteers would stay on in the next academic year to give support for the new batch of committee as well. No, we have not chosen. Haha… The time will soon come.

If anyone has the heart to continue, they will stay on. I always believe there is no point in making volunteers to stay if they cannot commit themselves to it. What matters most is the passion that lives in us.

Disgrace in Singaporeans

An incident that I saw on the bus on my way home today.

It is seriously a disgrace to Singaporeans!

Even though many of us may hate China people to be here in Singapore for various reasons, but I feel that we should be reasonable about it. Some China students I see in my course are really selfish, but I always know not to streotype all of them because there are nice ones out there. It really sucks to see Singaporeans openly criticize China people with such dismay.

The incident happened during peak hours when the bus was really crowded. When I turn around for more space, the action began with Singaporean & China sitting down side by side. Singaporean told China not to lean on him with a pissed off face. With a puzzled look, China tried to explain that it was a bus, but he was cut off by Singaporean rudely. I knew what China was going to say, but he never had the chance. Everyone knows it is unavoidable to knock or "lean" on the person next to you when the bus is moving. Therefore, I felt that China was reasonable. But Singaporean wasn't very happy as he felt that sitting in a bus is not an excuse to lean on him & asked China to look at the rest of us standing. I was right in front of them, keeping quiet. Singaporean continued scolding in a raised voice. Then China could not take it & asked what was his problem. And this was raised back by Singaporean. China really could not stand him & stood up, yet he made a wrong move. He mumbled a loud "Stupid ass". Seriously, if it was me, I would curse under my breath for such unreasonable treatment too, so I don't blame him at all. All Singaporean did was, "You're in my country now! If you're not happy! Get back to your country!"

Don't you think it was a disgrace to Singaporeans? Country should not be our excuse! How patriotic can you be when you insult others blatantly? I love Singapore, but I have to admit we don't have the most beautiful country in the world. We have to thank this kind of rude Singaporeans to show others the ugly side of us. Intolerable.

I went PAH yesterday with T.H.E.S people! It's Putty-a-Home for me! Haha...

Okay, why do I say that? I barely did painting for the whole day!

My group consisted of T.H.E.S peeps & 3 other NUS people. We were supposed to paint this small-area with 2 doors near the main entrance, and the staircase area behind 1 of the doors. Before painting, we laid out newspaper on the floor and wrapped everything that was not to be painted with masking tape and newspaper. As the area outside was quite small for all of us, some of us decided to start with the staircase area. So I was 1 of them who went under the staircase to start work. We had to scrape off any peeling old paint before we can start filling any cracks with wall putty. Pei Jie happily scraped off the whole big piece of wall right under the stairs because a big area was peeling off. Then our group leader told us that we did not have to scrape off those we really could not scrape off, because we had to putty the whole wall as cement cannot be painted over! So in the end, instead of filling cracks, we puttied the whole piece of wall there! If you think wall putty-ing is easy, think again... I spent almost the whole day just putty-ing that wall, waiting for it to dry, filling up cracks that were not puttied the first round, re-putty-ing areas which the wall putty would not stay. In addition, there was this small area where a thick slab of cement + paint fell off, so we had to putty up the big hole! There were a lot of people taking turns to putty, but I was the one who stayed there most of the time. There was a point of time I went to paint, but I realized I CMI with height! It was more tiring painting with rollers attached to poles at high area than puttying the wall. Therefore, I gave up! Haha...

Interaction time was bad! We were supposed to play treasure hunt with the elderly so we would get the chance to interact with them. But the process was so confusing & I didn't enjoy it at all. I guess they overlooked the fact that the beneficiaries are elderly and some elderly were more reluctant to move, so it would take a longer time for us to invite them to participate in the games. To think they actually conducted a game that required speed. Imagine we had to play it in groups somemore! The elderly I interacted with kept asking me where we are going when we were trying to gather them in a group, and yet I could not give her an exact answer at all! By the time our group was formed, another group had already won! But we hadn't got started!!! Oh well...

Anyway, I nearly died of embarrassment during cleaning up. Boon Peng and I was clearing and unwrapping the newspaper. Someone was so smart to "masking taped" the CCTV cables! And it was really nicely wrapped! But the poor me who had to do the unwrapping had the most "enjoyable" time doing it! It was so difficult to remove the masking tapes as they were all stuck in a tangle that Boon Peng helped me borrow a pair of scissors to cut off some parts of the tapes. I felt like dismantling a bomb all the time! There were 2 cables connected to the CCTV which led to 1 socket point, so that person twined the 2 cables together. I was like tugging gently and cutting with care just in case I tugged off or cut off the cables by sheer force! After struggling with it for some time, even the home management people came out of the office! From what the guy who came out to look said to the lady still in the office, I guessed they were thinking who was messing with the CCTV because the CCTV tilted to different angles every few seconds while I was trying my best to remove the masking tape.

Nevertheless, the experience was great even though it was super tiring. I only felt the soreness at my back after the whole programme. Luckily, I got home in less than 10 minutes! Haha...

I wonder if I should set some goals/expectations for myself. If I do, I will have a target for myself to aim to achieve. If I don't, I feel like a slacker with nothing to expect in life. I do wish I have some goals/expectation for myself so I have a right direction to follow. But yet, I'm somehow afraid.

For quite some time already, whenever I aim to achieve something I want, undesired results happen and I will feel totally disappointed. These expectations are not unattainable and reasonable to be set for. Furthermore, I worked hard for them. However, result are always unexpected in the end. It makes me wonder why things turn in the wrong way. Whereas, whenever I let things be as they are and stop expecting some similar result to happen, the results are unexpected too, just that they're in the good way. When I totally do not expect something at all, I get pleasant surprises all the time. Does it mean I should live my life as it is and stop setting goals/expectations for myself? But I always thought humans should plan goals/expectations ahead in life? I'm confused. What does satisfaction come with exactly?

I felt so much better after telling him everything that day. I've told some people before. Some understood, but I just felt they weren't the right people who I really want to tell. Nevertheless, I still have to thank them for listening to me. But finally, I told him. Someone who I think I should tell. And I was right. He is the person who understands why I dread hearing some things, and why I made some selfish decisions for myself. His reply and consolation was the answer that I was looking for all this while. Now I feel totally relieved.

I guess I finally get to see a few people's true colours over time. Hurting others just because they want to present their best to others. I was so wrong for so long. What is a close friend? Someone who claims to be yours? I cannot imagine I took so long to realize. Her so-called close friends... I realized she has so many close friends. So many she doesn't want to lose any. But she lost me eventually. I guess I cannot stand that she has to decide between 2 "close" friends, and giving in to the other friend who was in the wrong, just for the sake of her own benefits. I was so silly to confide in her, and another one whom I totally thought I could trust. But I was wrong. But luckily, it is over too. I just want to say, humans can lie, but pictures will never lie. They will tell the truth one fine day to expose humans' lies.

Some other things, I really don't want to dig further into the truth anymore. It doesn't matter to me if they want to continue about those nonsense. Somehow, I think those undesirable circumstances then made my life easier now. I appreciate the freedom I get to enjoy during this holidays, and the time I get to spend with people whom I really miss hanging out with.