so scary... now, even tt person's name keep appearing in my dream... how horrible... I think it really leave a scar deep inside me alr..

juz forget abt everything, everything is fine?? put all tt aside & tears will stop flowing?? juz wad is so important in life?

nothing is ever easy... juz like wad meryl wrote in her blog, pretending happy when one's unhappy is a painful thing to do..

when I made tt decision tt day, I know everything is going to change.. nth will stay e same.. for wad shld be mine, I've given it away.. only those who knows understand how I really feel..

so much of trying to learn to be selfish.. I guess I'll nv learn my lesson.. trying not to hurt others, but now... juz feel so stupid & everything...

still a long way to go..