scH sTarTs... aGaIN....

today's officially e 1st dae of my poly life. no big deal, juz meeting lecturers & getting to know them, our textbook & all e module stuff. gave cedar her b'day prezzie too. nth quite happening today la.. miss MJ alot, dey went fer MMM today & watch movie today.. was chatting wif laykim on e train on e way home, tok lots of crap la..

it juz feel different over e wkend... have I got over it? I dun tink so. it's like... I dunno how to say, I look veri normal in sch today, but deep inside, it's realli a diff feeling. I initiated it, so shldn't I b happy?? now there's no one to care abt all tis fer me, so I'm lost... I know we're truly affected & heartbroken, but we can get over it real soon, cant we? I dunno, it's like a heartless ting to do, but guess tt shall b it... forget abt me & u.. let's juz carry on ourselves.

I cried.. dun ask me y..

I know I could not do it in e 1st place. I dunno y... but I stil did it.. I'm sorry.. I juz tink I couldn't make it, it's not ur fault at all.. it has since a long time I've nv been alone.. but tis has become my choice to walk thru my life alone again. I know u wan 2 salvage e situation all e best u can, but I dun tink I can make it for e time being.

all I can is to say sorry... a thousand sorries's not enuff I know. however, I know there's a better person out there than me. I realli dunno wad to say now... I'm sorry.

Juz a LiL NoTe...

hey, juz wanna say... zhenhui's so sweet! though he dun nid go sch but he stil took his morning off sleeping 2 make sure I wake up in time 4 orientation. den I stil blur blur going yah, yah.. he's been helping me ask ard aso la.. nice guy ritez! jealous ritez... too bad onli I know him ritez.. LoL.. haha...

dun laugh ok if u read tis laykim! I know u'll coz onli u know! haha...

SP oRienTaTiOn...

was kinda depressed on e train ride 2 dover.. no friends 2 accompany me.. den c MJ students.. *DOUBLE WAH* aiya... nw miss MJ even more.. keep sms-ing laykim 2 keep myself entertained la...

anw, there's tis temp directory at biz block. DBIT MLT 9 blah blah blah... LOST LEVEL 1.. well.. I almost needed tt. haha... searching 4 blue balloons..

was so bored til I made my 1st friend. yeah, Jia Qun & Khay. den we keep toking la, hit off well considering e 1st day. hehe... tutorial rm activities r lame, but toking 2 e class's quite fun.. Juliana, or rather known as cedar or juju(onli khay call tt), is fun & noisy. so much energy. den Pei xuan's so cute, even when she runs. haha... tink e class's ok ba, lots of nonsense 2 tok abt aso...

den saw Alvin halfway.. dunno when he appeal into SP 1.. LoL... I tot there wun b any ahs ppl but chao yu's in here too. hmm... feel so tired after whole day of orientation.. but muz go 2 work after tt.. finally got home le..

sigh... I juz keep tinking of 05S4o1 den feel so depressed.. hope can adapt 2 SP veri soon...

HaPPy VeSaK DaE~

yeah... tt's it... I'm so happy today.. Laykim, Wanying, Mel, & of coz jonnie..., came 2 my hse 2 do their gpp. I miss MJ, 05S4o1 so much! altho it's onli been a wk, but I cant help it! =.= so wat happened was, e grp was asking q & crapping wif Ms. Tan on msn.. Mel refused 2 let jonnie give his own comments so ended up dey fight over my keyboard. well... lucky my keyboard was of high quality & nv get destroyed by tis 2 monsters. haha...

well... there's aso tis program on tv got both JJ & a-do! so nice when JJ sang "hui you na me yi tian"!!! well... tt's always my fav song of JJ.. so touching... feel so dreamy le...

anw, we went shopping at TM & CS.. me, laykim & mel.. den me & mel was laughing all sorts of nonsense la... tink I too long nv c her become "short" le.. haha...

well.. I'm tinking of wearing MJ orientation tee 2 SP orientation tmr. but I decided not 2 in case pp bash me up la.. u'll nv know lehz..

wOrKinG iS sO FuN... LoTs oF ThiNg tO kIb0sh aBt...

woah.. of coz I'm not going to crap abt all sorts of things tt happen during my work time.. too many tings to rmb anw.. so juz going to say:

haha... I saw Mel at work! LoL... den we sort of chit-chat fer 1 min at e counter when my supervisor's juz behind me! hehe... Mel is so bad! I tell her geo student shldn't take plastic fer small items. tt's wad chris chen teach anw ritez... but she insists, so I gave her a tiny 1.

*sob sob* from e polymer

I stand at e counter til my feet hurt la.. for 10 hr leh... anw, my right calf started 2 hurt 2 nitez ago again til today haben recover. yes, again lehz... I tink I hurt it during taf tt time while running.. den hurt fer days aso.. nearly went to c doc but it recover.. but I dunno y it hurts again.. sigh... if not, I realli going 2 c doc...

yeah, my msn recover liao! my my email got flooded though.. knew it's going to happen anw. 3 days nia lehz... fainted.. got an email from biz club & a phone call.. chosen me as leader fer NETS contest.. LoL.. I told them I've withdrawn, den dey nth 2 say.. none of my biz liao! haha.. I know I'm so bad but tt's e truth.

ok, dunno how to end.. juz wanna say I miss 05S4o1 alot.. hehe...

oOoBoRinG!!!oOo

msn's been down since y'day.. not able to check email & login lehz.. izit onli mY hSe or everyoNe else? coz my sis's friend could sign in.. I guess my hotmail shall flood soon fer some reason..

nw tt I got my poly timetable.. shucks.. I cant even survive a 45min tutorial/lecture, nw my longest lecture is like 2hr.. so if u ever recognize me wif big RED eyes after a few mth, rmb 2 say hi ok. =P well, if u ever tink prac lessons r sucky, forget it! I've tons of prac every wk. not 2 mention I've a Java lecturer cum tutor wif initial LKK, whom my sis says he realli a LKK..

P.S. for those who dunno, LKK= Lao Kok Kok. :)

FiNaLLy...

yeah... I finally finished my testi 4 drew.. my com sort of going slow & relaxed today.. restart by itself 2x.. told jinsen & drew abt ks in biz club den jinsen was like LoL... not surprising at all..

anw, i sort of told my mum abt e letter thingy. den she was like so pissed off. not wif me, but wif e sch.. she said she wan 2 go MJ scold e teacher being so troublesome.. of coz, I wun let her make a scene dere.. so nw, wad's going 2 happen 2 my parent letter? sigh... like I know ritez...

oF CoZ nOt!!!

I'd say I wun bother entertaining ms wong ok.. who was it when I ask if there's realli a need 4 letter of acceptance & replied "it doesn't matter, dey wun realli bother abt it" last thu? so nw who's e one asking 2 write parent letter coz letter of acceptance arrive veri late? look! I'm so free last wk & I can jolly well ask my mum 2 write tt letter u wan. but if I ask my mum nw, it's b a diff case...

I got up early tis morning at 8 to pass lay theng my SP doc. & SP card.. I cant help it if e sch dun even accept PROOF of acceptance tt I'm truly enrolled in SP already & insist on e official letter. I tink e sch wan official letter & not photocopy. In any way, I cant ve e original 4 them coz I've to submit to SP. wad am I supposed 2 do?? ask my mum kill me?

I'm so frustrated...

___...BoRed...___

bored, realli bored, totally bored, extremely bored...

sigh... y isn't tt when we nid not go sch tt we feel so much wantin 2 go sch & when we're in sch tt we wan sch 2 end earlier?? I guess tt humans r juz so unsatisfied of wad dey've. y am I so rite?

I set my hp alarm at 6.20 tis morning 2 say hello 2 laykim thru sms.. den was like half-closed eyes, din even know if I sms anything silly not... den fall back asleep when she stop replying 4 her session. I keep telling myself today is sun.. sigh... but it's not.. stay at home whole day dunno wad 2 do. was supposed 2 write a testimonial back fer andrew, which he wan it like 3 days ago...

I guess all those running I did regularly fer e past mth work coz my appetite grow smaller. my mum say I look thinner abit but I dun tink so lehz.. though nw I can stick 1 hand at least into my ahS skirt. haha...

sAmE oLd sUn mOrnINg

ok... juz finished editing all my crap on e blog.. was cutting & pasting, got my tag & post mixed up.. anw, tis wasn't my blogskin on fri anyway... it was one wif JJ's song tt I refused to give up til today.. haha... finally can publish my blog to e pubic.. nearly fainted & got myself blind... spent whole 2h on tis.. going crazy ok... now listening to yes 93.3, tt Guo Mei Mei muz rawkz more man...

rAiniNg, RaIniNg....

I went to work today to replace my sis la.. saw so many MJ ppl going to e parent orientation ting. anw, stil muz thank 05s4o1 fer e card & prezzie ok.. it's so nice... shan't comment on e tutors' handwriting k... haha... den I saw a customer looking so much like wanying! onli wif bigger eyes...

den I got home at 10+ la.. e street olreadi so dark. I took lift as usual. when I got out, I dunno where my nerves come from, but dere's tis ger smoking looking so fierce walking into e lift. guess wat I did.. sth I nv done b4 ok.. I held my head high, giving e look of " wad's e big ass deal of u man?!" lucky she nv kill me on tis rainy nitez ok.. or she'll c me on e headlines on Sunday Times. haha...

mY 1sT pOsT.. YeAh~

1st post. I promised becka shall start a blog to keep 05S4o1 updated. yeah, I'm doing it rite nw. sigh... let's juz say tis ok, I realli choose tis skin coz of e song! haha... when I went to choose, becka!!! I din know so many ppl like PINK! I almost fainted.. ok, let's end here 1st, I need to do sth..